(B02C10) Chapter 10: Currency Exchange

Food For Thought

“DRAW FROM THE WELL OF UNCHANGING, ITS UNION NOURISHES ON IN THE RIGHT RE-ARRANGING, TILL THE LAST CONFUSION IS GONE.” – “SLIP INSIDE THIS HOUSE” BY 13TH FLOOR ELEVATORS

The more time that I spent with Aaron, the more I began to take on his mannerisms. In any group or collective, members often take on the energy of those who “feed” them conscious energy or otherwise clear away obstructions that lead them to higher perspectives. This is the reason why pets often grow to resemble their owners. Animals are not only being fed with food, but they are also being supplied energy via the brain's Alpha frequencies. Even in the wild, where there is little “face-to-face” communication between species, insects and animals alike take on the appearance of the dominant energy in their environment. Not only are mannerisms affected, but any cell that is tuned to these invisible frequencies can start to cast their physical forms to resemble dominant archetypes.

The capacity for our cells to vibrationally attune themselves to others depends on our present level of awareness. However, this has a specific purpose that is intended to help us to expand our conscious awareness. When any aspect of another has developed beyond our own, that channel becomes dominant within us, causing us to receive their subconscious projections as well as take on their mannerisms, demeanor, thoughts, emotions, and even physical development. In this way, we establish a relationship with other beings so that we can eventually ascend beyond our present restrictions. We will continue to do this with everyone we have met until we can become conscious of these energies, consume them, and expand our awareness so that they overlap with our conscious free will.

“BUT OH, IT’S ANOTHER DAY IN THE HEAT. WALKING THROUGH WALLS, INTO A BACK SEAT. QUANTUM ENTANGLEMENT FROM ANOTHER ME—MAKES THE MESSAGE MOVE SO EASILY.” – “TEA WITH INFINITY” BY JD STAHL

In one respect, this can be explained by the quantum superposition that maintains the energetic balance of the entire physical dimension. The “closer” that one approaches these archetypal ideals—geographically or otherwise—they establish residency within our cells until we can (consciously) create a deconstructive interference pattern that will return us to balanced homeostasis (self-awareness). Creating a harmony that offers transcendence from being “puppeted” by the dominant energy of another's consciousness forces us to do the work to regain our sovereignty from subconscious control systems.

Even beings who seem to cause us to lose our composure are in control of us until we can release our emotional attachments and rise above the subconscious manipulation. These negative energies are the opposite polarity of our desires and addictions. In order to earn back our conscious free will and spiritual sovereignty, we have to take responsibility for the extremes in all polarities of our multitudinous character—all the way to the Brahmanic state (Unity Consciousness, God, Christ Consciousness, Atman, I Am Presence, etc.).

The closer we master our physical existence in human bodies, the further we take on aspects of divinity, unconditional love, empathy, compassion, etc. Eventually, there will be no physical entity that will be able to undercut our conscious awareness. It is at this point where we can begin to take on aspects of divine energy—the formless patterns that govern the entire universe. When this occurs, our mere presence in an environment takes on the role of a symphony conductor—a veritable human puppeteer for every other human being that is nearby. The radius of their orchestra will expand outwards in proportion to how close they have “ascended” (in vibration, not spatial relation) towards the purest expression of unconditional love, Omega, and the frequency vibration of consciousness that has been given many names (most popularly, “God”).

“WELCOME TO THE BLACK NOISE. PROPHETIC AND HYPNOTIC LINES. BEHIND THE EYES. BRIGHTEST LIGHT. RECEIVING THE STARS. COLLECTING THE LIGHT. TO SHOW. TO EMBODY COLLECTIONS. TO MAKE ALL THE CORRECTIONS TO THE SUN AND SAVIOR MACHINE.” – “BLACK NOISE” BY JD STAHL

The existence of this single source of energy (by any name) makes the existence of all representations equally infallible. Every physical object—from human beings to rocks—are all “working” to achieve perfect harmony between their environment and authentic expression. In a similar way, we are all alive to reach this state of balance between our genetic predispositions and any possible environment we encounter. We do this “work” so that we can cancel out any generational/ancestral karma that has been carried over and bequeathed to us in our DNA.

Our mRNA will continue to embody the temporary archetypes (spirits) until we can attune our physical existence to harmonize with the luminous perfection of our RNA (nervous system). This is our personal “battle” between light and darkness; it is where the body becomes the environment (darkness) to the light being within. Even the word “Christ” or “Krishna” means the collection of all possibilities. When the colors of all light are combined, white light is produced; respectively, when the colors of all solids are combined, black opacity of matter becomes the product. In order to be spiritual sovereign beyond all possible manipulation in the physical world, we must be able to embody both polarities while still remaining centered, consistent—bringing to consciousness the “messenger” (angel) that is consciously aware of both duality and the singularity simultaneously.

“TO GROW. TO BE THE LIGHTNING SPEAKER. TO BE ENLIGHTENED. TO CARRY THE VIBRANT BALANCE KEEPER. LOSE YOUR MIND AND REACH THE SKIES.” – “BLACK NOISE” BY JD STAHL

Even insects—butterflies, for example—develop what seems to be like eyes on their wings as an attempt to acquire an adequate defense mechanism that can give them an advantage above other butterflies. The deeper that an entity (insect or animal) accesses their quantumly-channeled energy, the more these archetypal ideals can be sourced all throughout time as well.

This is the reason why the golden ratio has established itself as the basis of all growth in nature. The root wavelength that supplies the energy to all living things—brain waves, included—is the Omega channel. The Omega channel is different from the other brain wave frequencies because it has a “radial frequency.” This means that it is measured in circular cycles or spirals. From the singular, radial Omega frequency is the Delta frequency. Instead of a radial construction, the Delta is channeled into a 3-sided triangular frequency. In addition, to represent duality, it also has a smaller wave that sits inside the larger wave. This is the “Sub-Delta.” It would be like setting up a model train-set inside of a subway car.

The Omega would be the singular parent of all the energetic frequencies of the entire physical dimension. The Delta would then represent the trinity perspective that lends depth—similar to the light, shadow, and shape concept, or the past, future, and present construct that authorizes linear spacetime. The primary Delta and Sub-Delta waves represent all aspects of duality: masculine/feminine, light/dark, yin/yang, etc. The Delta can be considered the “parent(s)” of the lower channels: Theta, Alpha, Beta, Gamma frequencies. Each of these frequencies (in separation) represent a different aspect of the parent—just like how the four elements (air, water, fire, earth) are necessary to create any possible physical construct—like “magic” or physical metabolism/respiration.

When someone is able to balance their 4 (awakened) brain waves and channel their energies back towards the double-radial Delta wave, it causes the brain to secrete DMT, baptizing the brain and “cleaning the slate.” This makes it possible for us to reconnect to the Omega frequency. The longer we resign ourselves in this Omega state—in deep sleep, using psychedelics, or transcendental meditation—the more the Delta channel can mirror the timeless supply of the Omega. The closer that one approaches the center of the spiral, the more time dilation that is experienced—until the speed of light is reached and time and spacetime itself becomes irrelevant.

The Golden Meaning of Unconditional Love

“STEP OFF THE TRAIN ALL ALONE AT DAWN. BACK INTO THE HOLE WHERE I WAS BORN. THE SUN IN THE SKY NEVER RAISED AN EYE TO ME.” – “D'YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN” BY OASIS

To penetrate the walls of the 4th dimension, one has to merge with the energy that is faster than light speed. More simply, one has to (temporarily) deny or “choke” the energy they are supplying to their physical existence in order to channel that energy elsewhere. When these energies are channeled from the physical to the non-physical, one is able to empower (and combine) their clair-essence senses (4 winds: clairvoyance, claircognizance, clairaudience, clairsentience) in order to become the physical embodiment of the “lightning” that connects the physical to the non-physical without experiencing frequency or signal degradation. This phenomenon occurs in deep sleep states; however, few of us are able to introduce these experiences into our physical (waking/working) consciousness because our perceptual construct of time and space are unable to house the timeless limitations of information that is sourced through the Omega.

The radial frequency of Omega is proportional to the Golden Ratio or Phi (1.6180339...). This frequency is the mathematical representation of unconditional love. It is perfect in every aspect, supplying an unlimited fountain of energy that cannot be created or destroyed—only transferred. Whenever we prioritize the physical world over the source of all energy, love, light, etc., we transfer our sovereign energy (inheritance) to the subjects that consume our attentions or concerns. We can trade or “sell' these energies consciously or unconsciously.

If we utilize these energies in correspondence with our free will, we can “spend” time learning how to better align ourselves with the only divine frequency that has freed itself from the slavery of the physical world. The Golden Ratio/Man vibration is essentially our “salvation” from being enslaved by the physical construct and ego personifications. We can learn the most about ourselves by reconciling ourselves with externalized projections or just simply paying attention to our emotional responses to things that cause us to lose our composure and fall into fear, desire, confusion, etc.

Whether we know it or not, we are all doing our best to approach this mathematical perfection of love's most divine frequency: the Golden Mean's growth ratio of unconditional love, life, light, and guidance towards Nirvana, Satori, bliss, etc. If any “thing” remains in our way as an obstacle to the self-awareness required to ascend towards enlightenment, the universe will respond and we will be shown our reflection until we learn to achieve equanimity. As this reconciliation occurs, both projected and received energies in the physical world will cancel each other out and we will “ride” the Omega wave, embodied as the energy of unconditional love—the many names of God, incarnate.

Tailor-Made Illusions of Salvation

“SO GOD AND SATAN WERE WALKING DOWN THE STREET. GOD POINTS TO A SHINY OBJECT AND SAYS, 'LOOK, I'VE FOUND TRUTH!', AND SATAN REPLIES, 'HERE GIVE IT TO ME. LET ME ORGANIZE IT.'” – RAM DASS

In order for this bottomless well of unconditional love to “fit” inside us, we have to cast away previous belief systems and ideas that prevent, limit, or place conditions on unity or the expansion of consciousness. Simply put, if one wishes to find salvation, they have to forget the ideas and constructs that are too small to contain them, else one will “burst” like old wineskins that have been filled with new wine. All morality principles, religious separateness, or other fragmented principles of education must be combined, ELSE destruction will occur inside the psyche or collective. Simply put, outdated limiting belief systems that exist in separation are unable to provide healing to an individual whose consciousness is constantly expanding towards greater awareness.

As long as we cling to limiting belief systems, we will continue to draw energy from the external world. This is how we initially structure a healthy ego—by pulling various pieces from the people and experiences that we encounter in our lives. As we “try on” these pieces and embody them as our own, we gauge our emotional responses until they no longer cause us to fall out of our composure. Similarly, if we watch a movie for the first time, we will often be surprised by how the story progresses. As a result, our attentions will be broad, composing the backdrop as to understand how the characters fit into the plot. However, the more we watch the same move, the less we will channel our attention on establishing its construct. Eventually, after watching the same movie many times, we will be able to transcend all of the things that previously caught our focus.

The pieces of others that we take on as our own energy will remain, clinging to our psyche until we are able to release them with a transcendental awareness. These energies have the capacity to change us, even alter our appearance. We will model those beings who we have chosen to believe hold a part of us that we are unable to carry, acknowledge, or accept independently. Often, we can push and project these energies upon others in ways that are harmful to them. Eventually, however, these energies will establish themselves (like seeds) inside of the consciousness of others; each one yearns to blossom into a purely balanced archetypal expression. When these archetypes are transmuted into their raw form, these energies can be used to manifest our potentiated dreams into the physical reality. The more archetypes that we balance, the more powerful we become, “ascending” towards God/Christ/Cosmic/Unity Consciousness.

“I'M SO HAPPY 'CAUSE TODAY I FOUND MY FRIENDS. THEY'RE IN MY HEAD. I'M SO UGLY, THAT'S OKAY, 'CAUSE SO ARE YOU. BROKE OUR MIRRORS. SUNDAY MORNING IS EVERYDAY, FOR ALL I CARE. AND I'M NOT SCARED. LIGHT MY CANDLES IN A DAZE. 'CAUSE I'VE FOUND GOD.” – “LITHIUM” BY NIRVANA

The difficulty in transmuting archetypal energies is that it requires us to release our dependencies and attachments on both our physical dependencies/attachments and our emotional reactivity. This is exactly the reason why we subconsciously channel our free will to project pieces of ourselves on others; it is also the reason why others project equally upon us. The ties that bind us together—with a single person or group—will remain like chains until we are able to reconcile them with absolute empathy, unbearable compassion, forgiveness, and unconditional love. Not matter how far we travel from one another—even after death—these ties will remain in the etheric spaces within and around us until we rest into the true knowing of balanced perfection: purpose.

Just like all living things grow towards the Omega frequency, or how animals take on the appearance of the dominant energies in their environment, all physical beings will grow towards Truth—towards unity and unconditional love. To “heal” is to approach truth—like how a mathematical equation is written to approach absolute zero or cells reach their optimal vibration and separate from “dis-ease” or cancer. Every physical object yearns for truth, reaching with our “will to live.” This unrelenting force always guides us back towards our “nature”--towards the pure white light that is “law” or “God.”

When we touch this perfection, we “die” in the body—temporarily. Thousands of times per second, we are born anew. Unfortunately, because our concepts of reality, spirituality, and universal existence often prevent expansion, we return ourselves immediately back into the prison construct we have created with our rational minds and desire systems. As a result, so many people are only capable of believing that salvation lies in the external world—or in some human messenger that speaks the message that has been waiting (literally, forever) for us to realize within ourselves.

Our desires create and destroy, always guiding us back to the place we left to search for something that only becomes further away the more we reach for it. We yearn for life, but we are already alive with desire. Underneath our fears, speaking to the universe, we are all praying for death—our return “home.” This “home” or “Kingdom” was—and will always be—the “Mother,” the concept of death, darkness, raw energy, space, and silence.

Mannish Momma's Buoy

“THE GYPSY WOMAN TOLD MY MOTHER BEFORE I WAS BORN: YOU GOT A BOY CHILD'S COMING. HE'S GONNA BE A SON OF A GUN. HE GONNA MAKE PRETTY WOMENS JUMP AND SHOUT. THEN THE WORLD WANNA KNOW WHAT THIS ALL ABOUT.” – “HOOCHIE COOCHIE MAN” BY MUDDY WATERS

Ever since I saw La Bamba in the movie theater and was shaken by the on-screen plane crash, I understood death from an entirely different perspective. In that moment, I was convinced that I had died. After a few seconds, I had completely accepted this death, causing me to disassociate myself with the external (physical) world. After the shockwaves of fear subsided, death was no longer something to be feared. Instead, what I felt after disconnecting from life was complete bliss—pure freedom from the weights and chains of life as I knew it. All of the confusing expectations, human ambitions, or insecurities that seemed to come with being “of” the world were released. In that moment of silence, I was merely an energy “in” the world.

After experiencing this perceptual death, there was really “no-thing” else that could compare to—or compete with—that absolute association with spiritual existence. I realized in that moment that the only way that I could truly appreciate life was to understand death for what it truly is: a transitional “birth” to the next stage of life. In death, we are free from all physical and emotional attachments; we are fully conscious divine sovereign beings. Without a fear of death, one lives entirely in truth; it becomes our food. The stronger our soul becomes, the more we are able to identify truth—finding it anywhere; behind any veil, disguise, or at any depth.

“IT ALL COMES DOWN TO DECISIONS. I'M AN ALL-STAR FUCK-UP, AN MVP. THE COMPETITION CONDITION IS FOR YOU TO BE ME.” – “4U2BME” BY JD STAHL

After embracing death to its fullest extent, I had a 6th sense for truth, unconditional love, and oneness. When I was in the presence of these energies, my hairs would stand on end, letting me know that my body was physically crystallizing in perfect harmony with intuitive wisdom and purity. The elation that I received became my primary source of motivation, pushing me to further develop my higher senses. The more I developed my clair-essence senses, the more I sought to spend time around those who I felt could support environments that were rich in authenticity—absent of competition. While I was in these environments, I felt safe enough to lower my defenses and maintain the sensitivity required to receive.

Unfortunately, separating the physical from non-physical was not always an easy—nor was it a task I could complete through objective reasoning or observational analysis. In order to truly understand another person, I had to get involved. In order to establish empathy—not sympathy—I had to experience life from a position that completely subjective. Instead of worshipping another person from a distance (as an idol), I became—even to the point where I believed that I was them.

“EMPTINESS IS LONELINESS, AND LONELINESS IS CLEANLINESS, AND CLEANLINESS IS GODLINESS, AND GOD IS EMPTY, JUST LIKE ME.” – “ZERO” BY THE SMASHING PUMPKINS

Though we often attempt to do this with our heroes or idols, many of us balk at fully ingratiating our consciousness with that of another being—at least to the point where we have to lose our own personal identity in the process. In many cases we are afraid of what others may think; we become pressured to avoid receiving some type of psychological diagnosis. These types of fears are caused by feeling that we are expected to live our lives in slavery, only to be lived in the shadows of others' expectations and standards.

The whole point of establishing a healthy ego is to get caught in it long enough to develop the necessary strength required to overcome these traps of externalized slavery. The ego is the shell that we must eventually crack in order to rise above the soil of the physical world. Unfortunately, we will be unable to reach these higher versions of ourselves if we are imprisoned behind the ego's illusory self-defense mechanisms. Each fear or attachment is merely a balancing force for the love we have lost in our confusion. As we shed these fears, we will be returned our own grace—the love within that always “approaches zero” (conditions).

Following Pro Seeds of Yore

“TOUCHED BY THE TIMELY COMING. ROUSED FROM THE KEEPER'S SLEEP. RELEASE THE GRIP, THROW DOWN THE KEY. HELD NOW WITHIN THE KNOWING. REST NOW WITHIN THE PEACE. TAKE OF THE FRUIT, BUT GUARD THE SEED.” – “CAROUSELAMBRA” BY LED ZEPPELIN

In order to shed our fears, we must confront them until we can transcend them. To accomplish this transcendence and heal our personal (or ancestral) karma, we call—and are called to—people in our lives who will allow us to objectively observe the pieces of us that we have not yet accepted. These people and experiences we encounter are either positive or negative, helping us to confront our attachments to either denial or dependencies.

Not only does fully embodying or “following” these archetypes allow us to step outside of ourselves enough to transition through the withdrawal from the drug-like addiction to our emotional reactivity. However, these archetypal challenges will also open doors to an empathic understanding that we would otherwise not have been introduced. Without ever being introduced to the external world, our soul would never have to face these “tests” of strength. In order for a seed to grow, it must first be cracked so that it can pull the nutrients from the soil around it. As our egos come to the surface and reach the light, we can very easily forget the perfect, safe environment from which we initially sowed.

Seeds, by themselves, cannot bear fruit or branch off to provide for their physical environments. Our souls are like seeds. In order to crack the shell of the soul and grow in a physical environment, they must absorb nutrients—the food and water of truth. Our souls, however, will hunger and thirst (in linear spacetime) unless we are able to purify our experiences and alchemize them into higher wisdom. It is only by purifying lower-dimensional experiences by sublimation that our souls can survive. All biases and personal agendas must be burned away, revealing only that which is representative of the highest truth. Any experience or perception that causes us discomfort, fear, confusion, or doubt must be sacrificed—by any means necessary—in order to save (and raise) the life of a soul that only yearns for us. This, above all ELSE, is our purpose. To deny the yearning of our soul towards truth is to deny God—to deny unconditional love.

Words of Pray

“BIRD OF PREY. BIRD OF PREY. FLYING HIGH. FLYING HIGH. TAKE ME ON YOUR FLIGHT.” – “BIRDS OF PREY” BY JIM MORRISON

Before my experience of being a bully on the school bus, I was blinded by my own sympathy for my best friend. Fortunately, afterwards, I was able to reach an empathic understanding of Aaron and truly understand (not just know) what it was like to be trapped by confusion. Stuck between definitions of “good” and “evil,” I was neither able to condemn or absolve myself from my actions. It was for this reason that I experienced internal/emotional conflict. Without the presence of this ambivalence, I would never have been (subconsciously) motivated to fully understand—or love, unconditionally—the qualities I shared with my best friend Aaron.

This gentle suffering is what led me towards a state of awareness that required unconditional acceptance—both of self and environment (others). All of the energies that remained in the “darkness,” lacking awareness, would have to be “brought to light” before I could return to spiritual sovereignty. My yearning for truth forced me to accept personal responsibility. Without absolute acceptance, I would continue to exchange energies with everyone. Tapping or draining energy that could otherwise be used to increase our cellular vibration causes us to resign our consciousness to lower vibrational states, a more “dense” physical reality where we are easily manipulated and controlled.

Any emotional inconsistency regarding my perspective of my best friend's inherent “goodness” made me feel insincere. After all, whenever I lacked consistency or sincerity, I would be stuck in a loop until I could pinpoint the unbiased truth. In order to recapture my confidence, I would have to get over my discomfort. At the very least, I would have to reach an empathic understanding of these experiences so that I would truly know how Aaron felt when he wasn't in my presence. If I was not able to reach this state of awareness internally through introspection, then I would essentially be “praying” to the universe to place me in as many situations that were necessary where these lessons could be viewed subjectively in my environment—at least until I had enough confidence (in myself) to be consistent in any situation where those patterns could manifest.

By understanding Aaron's suppressed emotions, I could better understand myself as his reciprocal. While Aaron was conflicted in how he expressed his masculine aggressions, I was denying the presence of my own, internally. In order to achieve balance, I would have to remove any of the barriers that stood between me and my best friend. Simply put, I would have to transmute sympathy into empathy. It was only by establishing empathy that I could transcend duality and alchemize both my masculine and feminine natures into a single archetype, without bias towards one or the other.

While I continued to favor the feminine aspects of my personality, the fear I maintained towards aggressive tendencies was broadcast outwards into the universe, calling forth people and situations that would inherently subject me to people and experiences that were externalized projections of my subconscious fears and desires. Aaron, of course, was the first person to introduce me to an inside-out perspective of my suppressed masculine tendencies. However, even when I was with my best friend, I still hesitated to reveal parts of myself that would eventually take me beyond my present personality distinctions. Essentially, I would continue to create karma in my environment until I was able to fully face the parts of my suppressed subconscious until I could fully accept them with unconditional love, bringing forth the alchemized collection of both masculine and feminine archetypes.

From The Horse’s Mouth

JD Stahl (02/02/2018) My sight shall not seek response, But only come into knowing. The piece in me in you is showing. The peace that is in you is growing. This comes from the horse’s mouth, But the message is bred within. Fences not to remember. Burning, like the glowing embers. I can’t count all the eyes that see. Past light and past lives at night. Falling from the heavenly skies above. Pacing for ears that are filled with love. Pleased are the tides that drained. Like the waters that wait for you, too. Memories locked, stocked like gold. Bodies that can’t think of being old. Yet I still know what the code is. It’s protected by diagnosis. I talk to people inside and beside you; Ones you’ve never met—disguised as you. Time the pass the shell to the few. Riding through the top is the wave. Controlled desire is tested by those wiser. Excessive absence is the way to get higher. Backwards talk you makes knight white. The stars all fall into line. But they’re too busy taking sides, On papers too blank to travel time. The sun rises and sets with youth. Will they be caught up in the storm? Challenge them to go on without. Let them believe other sides and not doubt. Seas of green and wheat without sound. Making it simple from travelers sight. Keep on prying the distant sands. Don’t let it fall through your hands. And when the cities all fall away, The moments that they let us keep Will redefine what is the new real. Systems will be built on what you feel. Don’t stop dreaming of lost loves. They have been waiting so long. At the end, when night begins to set, Alarms, alarms with not be off yet.

The Actors' Union (TAU)

“DON'T YOU REMEMBER? YOU TOLD ME IN DECEMBER THAT A BOY IS NOT A MAN UNTIL HE MAKES A STAND. WELL, I'M NOT A GENIUS, BUT MAYBE YOU'LL REMEMBER THIS. I NEVER SAID I EVER WANTED TO BE A MAN.” – “THE AIR NEAR MY FINGERS” BY THE WHITE STRIPES

As long as I maintained any condition that separated me from Unity Consciousness, the universe would respond, thrusting me onto the “stages” of my life until I could consciously transcend them. On/in each stage, I was “directed” towards character roles that would help to experience the obstacles that stood in between an archetypal ideal and my present state. I would either subconsciously project these energies from within and/or I would experience them objectively in my environment—as projections on others.

Whenever I rushed through from moment to moment, I made energetic addendums to my simplified logic that I had previously established in my youth. As my external world fragmented into greater complexity, the distance between clarity and confusion increased, pushing me further away from the state of higher consciousness that allowed me to learn and love without hesitation or fear. My confusion translated into a corresponding density; my cellular vibration lowered, causing me to become more susceptible to attachments, addictions, dependencies, disease, etc.

Eventually, it became too much for me to maintain my “yoke” or union (yoga) with the energy of divinity. Pure definitions of words, concepts, and ideals were soon plagued with more complex ones that did not fully balance both masculine and feminine aspects. As a result, every new experience became more and more difficult to process. Love became diluted with conditions and preferences. Grace separated from suffering.

Like a slippery slope, the energies from others started to accumulate until I accepted them as my own. Every remainder that was left over eventually “stuck” to me. After these clumps of confusion (neuroses) affixed themselves to my ego, I became more and more identified with my ego and less with my spiritual sovereignty—my true power. Until I could reclaim my true power, I would remain as a mere character in a play (avatar). It would take awareness to see that I was an actor, playing a part. Beyond that, it would take transcendence to recognize that I was the avatar, the actor, AND the director, all dancing together on stage—a purification fire for truth.

Planned Demolition

“AND YOU SEE A GIRL'S BROWN BODY, DANCING THROUGH THE TURQUOISE. AND HER FOOTPRINTS MAKE YOU FOLLOW WHERE THE SKY LOVES THE SEA. AND WHEN YOUR FINGERS FIND HER, SHE DROWNS YOU IN HER BODY, CARVING DEEP BLUE RIPPLES IN THE TISSUES OF YOUR MIND. TINY PURPLE FISHES, RUN LAUGHING THROUGH YOUR FINGERS.” – “TALES OF BRAVE ULYSSES” BY CREAM

Constructing a healthy ego allows us to establish an identity that is native to the physical dimension. Having said that, unless we are conscious of the temporary nature of our ego structure, we will be unable to use the full power of our conscious mind to free ourselves from it with our free will. Though ego development is a healthy endeavor all of us must endure to establish ourselves in the physical world, we must always remain conscious of its recyclable utility, else our body will become a fetter that anchors us to limitations that prevent us from attaining higher consciousness.

The ego should always remain in a state of impermanence, constantly fluctuating like the visible flames of a fire. We must always remember that even if the flames are unable to be seen, it doesn't mean that the fire is not lit. Invisible flames tell us that there was no oxygen (environmental friction or impurity) that called it to lower vibrations in the visual spectrum. For the same reason, when we kill our ego, we do not die; we merely escape the physical senses and recede behind the blue flame. More pure than the blue flame is the violet flame—hot enough to melt down anything in its path—until truth is all that remains.

“I HAVE ONLY ONE A-BURNIN' DESIRE. LET ME STAND NEXT TO YOUR FIRE.” – “FIRE” BY JIMI HENDRIX

Every ego—and every fire—has three aspects: the light, heat, and color. Each of these three aspects lend perspective to the observer (like how foreground and background contribute to depth of field in relationship to an object in focus). The nature of every ego can be altered by either fire or water; these elements can create, destroy, or otherwise help to preserve that which is already pure. We can us them to alchemically combine archetypal aspects (using metallurgy to blend them into a single alloy). By combining archetypes (or metals) we can strengthen and harden materials that were previously susceptible to bending or breaking.

Fire, water, or ego can similarly melt down and destroy anything in their path—destroying homes, landscapes, and even unconditional love. Therefore, our ego—with respect to both fire and water—cannot be to blamed for how they manifest in any specific environment. It is only how they are used that will determine their effects. For this reason, we must become conscious of them in every moment, ELSE they will force the ego to feel like a victim to its own ignorance and cause us to project blame (or credit) on the external world for something we created from a place of ignorance.

“'THIS' IS AN EVIL WORD.” – JD STAHL

Without developing a healthy ego where any of us are capable of stepping into our full power, those repressed energies will consume us—from psychological imbalances, physical disease, or even spiritual blindness. Forcing ourselves (or anyone else) to be condemned into silence for their true feelings is tantamount to abuse or slavery. Therefore, is never our job (or right) to force ourselves or others to change, repress, or disguise truth so that we can maintain comfort or ignorance. Instead, our journey towards divinity and perfection is one that will continue to manifest these energies until we accept them without attempting to impose our will upon ourselves or others.

What causes us to be uncomfortable is not as much a problem as our desire to eliminate it before we can release our attachments to the way we believe things “should” be so that we do not have to do the work to overcome our fears, preferences, or comparative competitions between self and other, good and bad, this and that, dark and light, masculine and feminine, etc. Defining or compartmentalizing anything with definitions that automatically imply duality is how evil is introduced into what previously was a healthy, unified system.

The establishment of polarity can be introduced with words like “this.” Such a pronoun can only guarantee that its existence must rely on the establishment of an inherent “that.” Immediately after such a word is introduced, our consciousness is diverted into two streams, severing our yoga with unity consciousness. Immediately, our energy plunges in frequency until the undefined areas of darkness can be identified and reconciled with their opposing force. As a result of any remaining darkness, the energy produced is fear. There is nothing humans fear more than the presence of the unknown. The darkness is created by the light, just as the light uses the Akash (space) as fuel to create the illusion of light in comparison.

Similarly, for a fire to burn, it requires fuel. A violet flame is fueled by the etheric gasses that are sourced internally, while the red flames burn the air near the “fingers” of the flames. Without relying on environmental sources for fuel, the fire almost disappears completely into its violet identity—like the soul birthed from within a human's ego body/persona. If anyone/anything touches this flame, they/it must be pure, else the flames will burn away whatever impurity to that which they are attached. If we are attached or identify with our ego, we will experience this burning as suffering; if we are not attached or identified with these illusions, we will perceive the purification fire as more a baptism—a cleansing of truth, like water.

Microscope Fiend

“MUSIC ORIENTATED SO WHEN HIP-HOP WAS ORIGINATED. FITTED LIKE PIECES OF PUZZLES, COMPLICATED.” – “MICROPHONE FIEND” BY EPMD

Since I had a desire to understand my best friend on a deeper level, I began to process any and all of the feelings that had kept me from fully establishing empathy with him. Until I could truly understand what it was like to take on his emotions in my own life, I would never be able to love him unconditionally enough to release my subjectivity to sympathy. By not being able to process these emotions or inconsistencies through the same introspective practices that I used while in Montessori School, I was not able to piece together both internal vs. external perspectives.

The entire universe was created from the introduction of a single vibration into a vacuum. In the same way, our life's entire system of complexity was created by introducing a single fear into what was previously pure energy (Unity Consciousness). From a raw state of absolute potentiation, the introduction of masculine vs. feminine duality created a tone, calling forth subjects to be made manifest in the physical world.

This process of organizing spacetime in linear fashion is the same for all of us; it's the reason that we often do not have memory of a certain amount of time after we are born. At this time, we had not established a structure upon which we could organize potential energy in its formless state. Our soul would not be able to grow unless this energy can be molded and shaped into the forms that it needs to bring forth (enlighten) every piece that represents its truest authentic expression. In order to create the necessary scaffolding that physical memory requires, we must fragment our senses until they can be discriminated separately.

The only other option would be to see the world through base patters of raw energy; unfortunately, that does not allow us to communicate via physical means or protect us from our physical environments. In actuality, all children are born telepathic. Unfortunately, we eventually grow away from being able to consciously decode this telepathy. When we lose this ability, we create separation. In exchange, we become capable of structuring rational memory in a linear construct. We do this so that we can create the healthy ego structure necessary to organize our soul's lesson plans/life experiences.

“THEY’VE GOT ME UNDER THE MICROSCOPE. FOR HOPELESSLY CONTROLLING THE BOAT. SOME CALL THIS SIN AND SOME CALL THIS PASSION. I GUESS IT ALL DEPENDS ON WHICH BOOK THEY WROTE. REBELLIOUS NATURE, LIKE DEVIANT TREES, GROWING TO THE SUN. AT ALL COSTS, BREAKING BRANCHES AND SPLITTING STONES. CREATING A RIGHTEOUSNESS WITH EXISTENCE, FOR FUN. CREATING THEIR HOME.” – “ABSOLUTION” BY JD STAHL

Being able to structure our energy gives us the capacity to order and itemize the necessary energy of action (karma) that we can then use to purchase time so that we can feed our soul with truth, empowering it towards divine purpose. Each moment contains the totality of universal consciousness; we are only limited by our rational mind's ability to participate in dilated time in relation to space (distance) between our ego identity and the energy of universal consciousness (God, nature, law, Brahma, etc.). Each moment can be “mined” for finer and finer grains of energy—each one containing the entire universe in totality.

We are like biological microscopes; our souls can focus with “course adjustment” and our bodies can offer a “fine adjustment” that only the linear time construct can offer us. Every single level of awareness that we occupy has a different ratio of sprockets and cogs, each offering an equal-but-different level of scrutinization of energy that are necessary to eliminate “distance” between us and absolute divination. When all darkness has been eliminated from every “piece” of our multidimensional puzzle, we can confidently act from the full power of our alignment and live as God incarnate.

Morpheus Striptease

“MULTIPLE DIRECTIONS LIKE THE SUNBEAMS FROM YOUR EYES. SPACE-AGE SUPERNOVA SYMPHONY; YOU’RE SO HIGH. DOORMAN TO SEVENTH HEAVEN TO DREAM NUMBER NINE. GENETIC PROPORTIONS REDEFINE WHAT’S FINE, IN TIME.” – “CROWN OF HORNS” BY JD STAHL

When we are confused about the perpetual offering of enlightenment in every moment, we fall victim into believing that divinity or salvation exists externally. This error causes us to worship idols or believe that we must “serve” anything other than attainment of unconditional love and empathic awareness in any and all situations. The deeper we go into our subatomic structure, the more we recognize the illusory nature of the physical dimension.

When we can transcend the physical dimension, we experience our awareness through other realms: emotional, mental, causal, astral, spiritual, etc. In the dimension where all of these energies are combined—in our dreams and Delta streams—we pull from unlimited potentiation (Omega/The Mother). From deep within our physical structure, we resurrect our perfection so that we can return full-circle to where polarities of creation and destruction have yet to be defined.

Behind every atom, quarks, preons, etc. is a never-ending Mobius Strip that maintains universal existence. It is so small that it can relatively house all time and space without establishing itself as physical mass. Everything on our personal Mobius Strip is interconnected; each of our strips contain the entirety of the universe, flashing activity of consciousness like fireflies in the night sky.

“YOU’RE THE CHOIR THAT SINGS MY HALLELUJAH. YOU’RE THE SYMPHONY TOO BEAUTIFUL TO HEAR. YOU’RE THE LOVE STORY MY PEN COULDN’T WRITE. YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS EVER FELT RIGHT.” – “PARADISE FOUND” BY JD STAHL

When we empower our conscious mind to exceed the boundaries of linearity and spacetime, we can connect to all universal energy: love, wisdom, and felicity (bliss). In Hinduism, this totality of energy (Brahma) is called “Satcitananda.” Satcitananda is a word that refers to that which is “beyond knowing.” It is at these moments when we magnetically harmonize with these strips and create an orchestrated symphony of consciousness—every one flashing in perfect balance within the broadcast radius of our souls most authentic energetic expression.

Each piece is hidden in the “darkness” of our unconscious, waiting for us to cast away the fears that prevent us from pioneering our own wholeness—our “holy” spirit who can conduct the perfect symphony of light from within. However, by denying the capacity for our own godhood, we deny the spirit itself, calling forth subjectivity and suffering. The conductor steps down until we can burn away the illusions that cause our spiritual blindness.

When all illusions have been burned away, our egos are shed from us like leaves in the fall; the conductor resumes her/his podium, and the symphony resumes.The music plays the songs and stories written deep within our soul. The drum beats shake away all that prevents us from recognizing our absolute divinity, revealing our naked souls. Shedding our egos is how we create and embody spiritual sovereignty while existing simultaneously in a physical form. The opus that plays is always of the highest vibration. Our quarks flip, “charming” every atom in our body until our Kundalini (snake) rises up our spine.

From the bottom to the top, our spinal fluid connects to form a gelatinous fiber in our spine, connecting all of our chakras (energy centers). This metaphysical “ascension” inspires a veritable fireworks show in our brain, removing all illusions and places us behind the veil of ignorance. In each of these moments, we are reborn anew. Like a human firefly, our nervous center lights up, sparking the presence of divinity that cannot be denied. In these moments, we have succeeded in not only bottling lightning, but we have learned to ride it as well. In these moments, we not only “meet” the energy that is accredited to “God,” but we ARE “God. “

Bottom to the Top

JD Stahl (11/13/2020) I’m in love with space. Since we first tied the knot. Day dream dip in my memories. Causal mate guiding me. Zero point creations. Ionic sensations. Action and rest. Infinitesimal. The best. From here to the end. Mental math. Passed test. Through the black. Out the white. Holes and time. Her way is mine. From day, our night. Non-physical house of light. Never fear. Never fight. Absolutely all right. Toroidal contraptions, Like apples and seeds. Flawless love and affection. Nothing to prove—no need. You pay her attention. No competition or greed. She brings Nature to her knees. Nothing compares to her sea. She’s particle number one. I’m the father of the axes. Tall vertical direction Lignin likened to humanity. Learned language of our Sun. Photosynthetic affinity. Channeling through humanity. Invisible key. Harmonic frequency. Singular organization, Astral masks—taken faces. A remote, non-local nation. She wins all the races. Silver-corded fascination. Fiber-laced space case. Shape-shifting reputation. Canal-fluid hallucination. From bottom to the top. It’s already got. Precious metal confetti. She’s my abominable ascension. Passionate tastes of infinity. The absolute connection. Broken torrent of information. Lack of concentration. A black coffee strange brew. Surfing for the clue. Plasma rich nervous zoo. Right here inside me, waking. Whatever fluid works for you. Instant energy. No waiting. What’s true is true. My imagination, forever creating. She’s the flame I’m breathing. My ventricle, beating. I’m her king. She’s my queen. My density destiny.