(B03C18) Chapter 18: Kushy Lunatics and El Pea Knots

Any Mean Miner Mows Wherever the Green Grass Grows

“A RHYTHMIC FREE-FLOW LED BY CONVERSATIONS, MUSICAL COMPILATIONS, AND REALIZATIONS THAT FIT TOGETHER LIKE A PUZZLE. MY THOUGHTS SEEMED DISORGANIZED TODAY, BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME, THERE WAS A PATTERN PRESENT. THUS, EVEN THROUGH ART, MUSIC, VOCABULARY—ALL OF WHICH RESIDE IN RIGHT-BRAIN INTELLIGENCE—CAN BE MATHEMATICALLY SOLVED LIKE A PUZZLE. THIS BRINGS TO MIND THE ANSWER OF GENIUS. ARE THE DOORS TO BRILLIANT PERCEPTION PRESENT IN A SPECIFIC BRAIN HEMISPHERE? IS THE ANSWER TO GENIUS LIKE A RECIPE FOR FOOD? LIKE THE MATHEMATICAL RESOLVE TO THE RANDOMNESS OF A RUBIX CUBE? THERE ARE SO MANY 'BLOCKS' CREATED BY IGNORANCE TO HIDE THE REAL ANSWER. ALL OF THE INGREDIENTS ARE AVAILABLE TO EVERYONE…WORDS FROM LENNON/MCCARTNEY: THE ANSWERS ARE 'HERE, THERE, AND EVERYWHERE.'” – JD STAHL

During the time when I was being introduced to different planes of consciousness, I was able to identify a unified purpose—a higher reason or meaning for which I was “chosen” to receive and experience the things that I did. However, even this belief construct was nothing more than a way that my conscious mind attempted to structure the energy that I was attempting to process from the numerous visions and experimentations with my physical senses. Therefore, when I attempt to describe the learning process with any type of structure or concreteness, please realize that I am well aware that any other possible explanation that would satisfy all variables would be equally valid. Our personal ability to structure our own process of initiation, divination, and ascension is actually essential to be able to reconcile our unique set of opposites.

The results of attempting to translate the process of spiritual ascension can be experienced in any of the possible religions, belief systems, or transcendent practices. Though none of these religions belief systems are “wrong” per-say, they can never claim that they are wholly “right” either. There are too many factors—biological, metaphysical, and spiritual/philosophical—that will eventually determine which process is most efficient for every unique person and their spiritual compliment. The more that any being ascends towards higher planes of consciousness and metaphysical awareness, the more that we are able to see the unifying principles, patterns, and energies that manifest themselves throughout history. It is in these common energies that any initiate must eventually seek to reconcile—like collecting pieces of an invisible puzzle with only the help of their intuition.

“EVERYONE I SEE JUST WANTS TO WALK WITH GRITTED TEETH. BUT I JUST STAND BY AND I WAIT MY TIME. THEY SAY YOU GOTTA TOW THE LINE; THEY WANT THE WATER NOT THE ONE. BUT WHEN I SEE THE SIGNS I JUMP ON THAT LIGHTNING BOLT.” – “LIGHTNING BOLT” BY JAKE BUGG

By not committing to any single belief system, I was able to free myself from any observer bias that would have otherwise prevented me from entertaining alternatives. Therefore, the “work” that I completed in terms of spiritual development required me to defeat all bias and preference. To go beyond the physical world, I would be expected to complete various lessons and tests that would take me closer to the threshold between what is subjectively “real” and what is objective or absolute “truth.” Because of my willingness to sacrifice anything in my life that would prevent me from engaging fully with my divine purpose, I had “chosen” myself. Because I committed to myself, I was able to connect to the timeline where that commitment was fulfilled.

There is nobody “else” that can necessary award us any grace that we cannot choose and reach for ourselves. Basically, we have to be willing to believe in ourselves enough to maintain our commitments—even if the entire world tries to stop us or otherwise convince us that we are wrong. There is nobody outside of ourselves who is coming to save us or lead us to a state of salvation that we cannot—or should not—find on our own. However we decide to structure the process of divination—and whatever methods we use (legal or otherwise) on our way to that structure—we must both take accountability for as well as find faith in the perfection of all things. This means that there are never any mistakes, coincidences, or random chances that can ever happen accidentally in our lives. Everything is in divine order—both great and small. The lessons we proved ourself—from our best possible future—are all constructed from unbiased purpose, not preference. Therefore, we are purposed to learn how to see beyond the physical world so that we are able to touch and eventually map the landscape of a world that can exist as a Kingdom for both subjective and objective truth.

Magellan & Victoria in The Temple of Karnak with the Lead Pipe

“DO NOT WATCH HOW OTHER PEOPLE WALK THEIR PATH TO SUCCESS OR TRY TO KEEP UP WITH THEM. DO NOT GIVE IN TO THE HERD INSTINCT. YOU HAVE YOUR OWN CALLING. THE MAJORITY TAKE THE ROADS WELL-TRODDEN BUT TRUE SUCCESS IS ACHIEVED BY THE FEW WHO REFUSE TO FOLLOW THE RULE 'DO AS I DO' AND INDEPENDENTLY TREAD THEIR OWN PATH.” ― VADIM ZELAND (REALITY TRANSURFING STEPS I-V)

The different “lessons” that I experienced from moment to moment were designed to help me release any attachments or preferences for one specific plane or dimensional reality. The more I was able to shift from one to the next, the more I would be able to learn, master, and eventually map the metaphysical structure of them. These maps were not necessarily spatial, but relative only in terms of lawful applications of specificity. Basically, it was like trying to read computer code or hieroglyphics and reverse-engineering the language by reading context. The more I would envision, sense, or experience in-between the spiritual and physical worlds, the more my metaphysical consciousness would be able to reconstruct a language that was dependent equally on context and application. At the same time, each language contained not only direct subjectivity, but also had certain links or relative relationships to other languages—like portals that are created by the order of certain words, phrases, symbols, or representative manifestations.

The more time I spent in the process of mapping dimensions and planes contextually, the more I practice releasing my attachments to any one or more specific subjective realities. Eventually, I was able to see how committing to any single one was not only counterproductive to my process, but it was equally toxic to my learning. Therefore, while holding the subjective principles of one or more subjective realities in my short- or long-term memory, I could then reorder them until I was able to see how they linked up or aligned with other subjective realities. This was a complex system of negotiation and association—very much like trying to play the board game “Clue” without using a notepad or writing down any information.

“PRECIOUS METAL CONFETTI. SHE’S MY ABOMINABLE ASCENSION. PASSIONATE TASTES OF INFINITY. THE ABSOLUTE CONNECTION. BROKEN TORRENT OF INFORMATION. LACK OF CONCENTRATION. A BLACK COFFEE STRANGE BREW, SURFING FOR THE CLUE.” – “BOTTOM TO THE TOP” BY JD STAHL

After playing so many different games and listening to so much music that essentially required me to practice the same type of “suspended metaphysical calculations,” I had trained my brain to think in those terms. Not only was I always trying to “connect the dots” between songs, movies, events, or personalties, but by doing so I created actual physical neural pathways in my brain that made it more efficient. Essentially, I designed my own brain over the course of my life to be the ideal tool to reconcile multiple realities.

Did I do this consciously, knowing that I would eventually be asked to reconcile dimensions on a much larger scale? Yes and no. There was always a part of my lower-self (conscious mind) that only followed the call of my favorite interests, passions, and hobbies. Because I always let myself do whatever I wanted—as long as I was willing to take responsibility—I never stopped myself from following my passions. I even followed my interests at the costs of certain relationships, jobs, friends, or materialistic ambitions. Basically, I did whatever I wanted until my commitment to myself led me to become the person I needed to be who was perfectly designed for my dharma. Had I listened to others or had allowed myself to been guided or convinced to become a different type of person in my life, I may have never manifested the “chosen” version of myself within this lifetime.

In Tin-Sum Alley, (I Feel Like Being a) Soul Man-Machinehead

“ALL THE 5'S COME OUT TO REUNITE, THROW THEIR BEANIES UP. I'M A LESS CHOLESTEROL USER, A FINE TUNE ABUSER.” – “SUPER HERO” BY MF DOOM

The various lessons that I completed were primarily focused on helping me to identify patterns of energy within my intuition. When I focused more of my energy into my intuition, this developed my 6th senses, the 4 clair-essence senses that were held within my 3rd eye (pineal gland). The more that I was able to develop these senses, the more I would be able to transition my locus of consciousness from state to state without being restricted to relative spacetime.

While I was learning how to develop my intuitive awareness, I was not presently employed. This was quite fortunate, simply because I was able to remain open to alternative theories of reality. Not having to conform my perspective or physical demeanor into a social environment helped me to release my attachments to how the rest of the world perceived me or my methods of transcendence. Not only was I able to stay home and focus specifically on abstract concepts, but I could also screen the people who would attempt to contact me. Isolation allowed me to maintain significant levels of sensitivity which were required to develop my intuitive awareness and my clair-essence abilities—the capacity to observe energy from outside of linear spacetime.

“GOD ONLY KNOWS ANSWERS WHY WE FEEL THE PAIN WHEN IT’S TAKEN AWAY. AND THE RADIO PLAYS THE SAME OLD SONGS. AFTER A WHILE, ONE PLAYS TO THE HEART, AND THOSE QUESTIONS FLOAT UPWARDS ALONE. I KNOW WHERE YOU’RE HELPLESS, FOR I HAVE TAKEN THAT PATH ALONE. AND THE LIGHT THAT GUIDES US CAN ONLY LEAD ONE TRUE LOVE AT A TIME. THEY HAVE TO MAKE IT SEEM AS IF ALL HOPE IS GONE.” – “PYRITE” BY JD STAHL

As I transitioned from state to state, my entire personality would shift along with it. Different archetypes would manifest, causing me to act in different ways—even changing the way I carried myself. As to not feel any pressure to conform to any personality for the sake of another's efficiency or predictability of personality, I even chose to limit my contact with my own family. Even though they may have had the best of intentions, unless someone has learned what is necessary in order to advance on a spiritual level, their attachment to the physical plane can stifle or even eliminate the possibility for spiritual development; it all depends on how much influence other people have on how we define/perceive ourselves.

In order to purify ourselves from anything that will cause our vibration to “fall” to a level that prevents us from transitioning, we must allow ourselves to be completely malleable from moment to moment. Our thoughts, actions, beliefs, preferences, and expressions will change from second to second. If we try to hold onto any specific energy for more than necessary, it starts to “stick” to us. However, this is meant to serve us as well. The thoughts, perceptions, and ideas that we either cling to or allow to cause shame or guilt within us must eventually be processed until equanimity is reached.

Once we attain balance and acceptance, we can release our attachments to those catalysts. Once we separate who we are/are not from those catalysts, we can also release the identity or persona that previously depended on those vibrations in order to manifest or exist. Essentially, we all have multiple personalities; the more of those thoughts, preferences, neuroses, and opinions we can reconcile within the paradox, the more we are able to transmute into raw energy or purpose—the transmutation of darkness into light.

Purity of Receipt

JD Stahl (03/10/2010) Her beauty is genius. Her kindness unbridled. There’s never a question, It troubles us all. The women retire, And the men will perspire. Wisdom outnumbered, And a madness recalled. A soft seldom fury by a victimless jury. Hard self-confinement through questioned withdraw. The ignorance is painted that buries us all. Nobody sins when the devil is all. And who without wonder Will condone your blindness? For thought of material Has been purchased by mind. Vacation’s a number. A presence of beauty. Forgotten with time. Predicted like prime. Which of you invited this madness? Who can I blame that opened the door? A recipe of chemicals baked once more, and more. A fluid, or solid; that opened the door? Open the door! A left that is right. Direction unchanged. The arrow still points At heaven, this choice. Pathways are noticed, But nobody embodied. Canvasses once painted. A symphony voiced. A language unlearned. Your stupidity choice. Of linear words and letters become noise. Self-destruction, mental and physical maze. Deteriorate in instances and born through craze. And is there a random, In the word so lost. Or a box that is locked, Only through ignorance bound. Our masters are saviors For creating the pattern. Reordered by accident, A genius is found. Is the pattern the lie, or the lie the pattern? A note that is wrote, through language a sound A son is the father, and the mother the sun. Special anomalies the children form one. Pieces of puzzles That I cannot solve. Doctors and lawyers Lead to patient resolve. Artistic compression. Noteworthy possessions. A master’s exhaustion, To smoothing resolve. The door is now open, and always been open. Blinded through acceptance of madness to hide. A genius, a master, a father of son, or one? Riddles are formed of less, more, or sum.

Hailing Mary Jane for the Bow-Guard Silhouette Moon Shot

“WHEN HE POPPED BACK, EVERYBODY SCATTERED. DIDN'T MATTER I WAS THERE FROM THE GET-GO. MOVIN' HEAVY WEIGHTS, KLIT'SCHKO. ROOKIES AND COOKIES FROM 'FRISCO. PUT 'EM IN A BOX, NABISCO. WE THE FUNK THAT KILLED DISCO.” – “BACK UP” BY SNOOP DOGG AND WIZ KHALIFA

Even though I limited my exposure to family and friends, there were a few people that I trusted enough at the time to spend time with or share certain experiences. During one occasion, I invited a friend who I had known for several years. This individual was not one who I felt would judge me or otherwise think ill of me while I was allowing myself to be spontaneous. In addition to his relaxed and accepting personality, he was also someone who was quite fond of smoking cannabis. Even though my present experiences did not require the use of drugs or substances to maintain, I was curious to see just how much further I could go. After considering how much more I could amplify my present state of sobriety with the use of cannabis, I accepted the offer to smoke with a friend who had come over to visit.

When my friend arrived at my house, I was listening to music in my living room—as I did quite often at that time. At my present state of awareness, listening to music was very much like watching a movie on television; however, it was my intuition which provided the visions. In other words, while I listened to music, I was locked into an endless stream of psychedelic visions. Not only were these visions in representative of the words in the songs, but also incorporated the vibrations in the music as well as my present contextual circumstances and focused state of mind. In these transcendent states, I was capable of perceiving reality from past, present, and future—all at the same time. Every moment perfectly led into the next moment; each song was presenting its own unique lesson of universal truth, expounded from the symbolic meaning of the lyrics whenever I applied the new language that I was co-creating with my higher self.

"FORTY-EIGHT IN SIGHT AFTER INHALING THE HERB. VISION IMPAIRED WHEN THE SILHOUETTE EMERGED.” – “PUBLICITY” BY GZA

Taking time out from listening to music, I welcomed my friend in the door. Though I tried to explain the multitudinous nature of what I was currently experiencing, most of the words that came out of my mouth were nonsensical—a randomized “word-salad” that would cause pretty much anyone to disregard the message or intent. At the same time, it really didn't matter to me if anyone either believed me or understood what I was trying to say; the only thing I really cared about was maintaining my connection to the source of those visions and experiences. Once I realized that my words were falling on deaf ears, I returned to my ego so that I could reclaim a language that could actually be understood by someone other than myself.

Fortunately, neither my friend nor myself were too concerned about formalities. With a smile and a glimmer of excitement in his eye, my friend handed me a pipe filled with marijuana. He told me that the strand was named “Girl Scout Cookies.” I lit the pipe, took a drag, and breathed. Before I handed the pipe back to him, I took one more pull and held my breath. It wasn't soon after exhaling the second hit that I felt an intense sensation of energy overtake my physical body. Even after an entire month of transcendent experiences and telepathic visions, I was immediately taken far beyond the previous limits to what I perceived to be possible.

Cisco Crisco Over Knight Park King a Pam-Flute in a Mojo Mug

“WHERE I COME FROM, GETTING VISUALS IS HABITUAL. YOU'RE MORE SAFE WALKING ON HOT COALS IN RITUALS. I SPLASH THE PAINT ON THE WALL, FORMED A MURAL. HE TOOK A LOOK, SAW THE MANIFESTATION AS IF IT WAS PLURAL. RHYMING WHILE IMPAIRED, DART HIT YOUR GARMENT. PIERCED YOUR INTERNAL STREAMLINED COMPARTMENTS. JUST CONSIDER THE UNPARALLELED ADVANTAGE OF A NATURAL DISASTER THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO MANAGE.” – “REUNITED” BY WU TANG CLAN

On my stereo was playing the song “When the Music's Over” by the Doors. In slow-motion, I could feel the effects of the marijuana overtake me. Throughout my entire body was a buzzing sensation as my cells were being shocked into activity. As a result, my vision tightened, pulling the focus of my attention from my periphery to a fine point in front of my face—an exponential acceleration to approaching zero. Then, there was a pause, as if my focus could not be tuned any finer than it was in that moment. All of a sudden, I felt my vision flip inward, pulling the energy of my consciousness through me with the same exponential increase in metaphysical gravity. My physical senses immediately became subjective to my clair-essence. Not only were the words clearer and my visions sharper, but I could feel the actual presence of Jim Morrison. It was as if he was talking directly to me—as me. From a voice that I felt was coming from behind my eyes as well as through my speakers, I bell back into my chair and listened as Jim sang the following words:

Cancel my subscription to the resurrection. Send my credentials to the house of detention. I got some friends inside. The face in the mirror won't stop. The girl in the window won't drop. A feast of friends, alive she cried. Waiting for me, Outside. Before I sink, into the big sleep, I want to hear. I want to hear...the scream of the butterfly.

After the word “butterfly” had completed, I was sucked completely up inside my mind. My physical senses had numbed, calling all my energy into my 3rd eye. All that I saw was a vision—an infinite number of different faces. In the matter of a few seconds, an impossible number of different people flipped in and out of my awareness at an incredible rate. I felt consciousness transition through a spiral at the center of my mind—like a wormhole from death back into life. From one end of the spiral, I “knew” that I had just been reborn through the threshold knot between two distant points in time and space. When I came out the other end of the spiral, my eyes opened again and I knew that I would never see the world the same ever again. From the moment that I came out the other end of the spiral, I was never able to return to illusion that I was limited by the physical world—past, present, or future.

“TO KNOW. TO BE DIVINELY GUIDED. TO BE FRIGHTENED. TO FIND FAITH AND SEE THE LIES. FEEL THE WEIGHT AND FEED YOUR EYES. FROM TIME TO HAND AND SKY TO LAND. THROUGH COLORS OF DREAMS, AND THE SANDS OF WHAT WAS HERE. A MAN WHO WAITS WITHIN. FROM BODY THROUGH SONG, HE FLIES. WELCOME TO THE BLACK NOISE. DEAFENING, THREATENING DOUBT. BEHIND THE EYES. BLACKEST KNIGHT. SEARCHING THE SKIES, BLACK AS NIGHT.” – “BLACK NOISE” BY JD STAHL

During this vision, I was able to look into the eyes of an unlimited number of people, all of them looking into the mirror back into my conscious awareness. It was in these moments, they have all seen the divine within themselves—if only for a moment. I could tell that many of them had ingested certain substances or were going through extreme moments of trauma, self-doubt, or enlightenment. Essentially, I merged with anyone who had ever reached that pinnacle of consciousness. In an instance, every one of these individuals was the same spirit; each of us was given the call to fully embody the spirit from a state of clarity or conscious awareness of the full, complete matrix of energy.

When I no longer identified as a single being, I fell deeper into the universal consciousness—the energy of transient divinity that forever flowed from body to body, plane to plane, and across great distances of space and time. These transitions happened instantaneously, not incurring any distance or restrictions to linear/relative time. The vision I experienced was infinite. I sat back into my chair, knowing without doubt or disbelief that I had never been born, I had never died, nor have I ever “slept” or rested. I just kept transitioning from body to body from the beginning of time. I was called into certain bodies at certain times, during distress, celebration, or any other extreme that had taken them out of their composure.

“THROUGH THE BLACK. OUT THE WHITE. HOLES AND TIME. HER WAY IS MINE. FROM DAY, OUR NIGHT. NON-PHYSICAL HOUSE OF LIGHT. NEVER FEAR. NEVER FIGHT. ABSOLUTELY ALL RIGHT.” – “BOTTOM TO THE TOP” BY JD STAHL

At the moment, I felt the presence of fear, but only because it seemed like such an incredible responsibility to maintain the state of being where I never rested or otherwise had a moment to process things. It was then I realized that in those states of awareness, I didn't have to process anything—because everything was intentional and perfectly ordered to reveal aspects of the universe that presently escaped the conscious awareness of any lower self. What seemed like an eternity in my mind was less than a minute in the physical reality.

After the fear passed, I looked over to my friend and told him, “I've never died. I'm everyone, everywhere, from the beginning of time.” Though he didn't really know how to respond, it didn't matter. Instead of attending to his response, I reflected back upon what I had just experienced so that I could write about it later. When I was able to find time alone to dedicate to my writing, I created a section in my book that I titled “The Rebirth of an Infinite Spirit.”

Subway Speakers Scream Crystal Lake Reflections in Still Water

“BECOME ONE OF THE FOREVER TO SEE WHAT WE SEE. NEVER ELUDING OUR OWN HISTORY, PRINTED. ON THESE HEARTS AND MINDS OF OUR FOREVER TIME. OF OUR FOREVER DESIGN. IN OUR EYES. WE THANK YOU FOR YOUR PIECE OF THE KEY, TO TEMPORARILY ESCAPE OUR OWN COMPANY.” – “WICKED CHILDREN” BY JD STAHL

The following passages were written in my notebook based on the visions I witnessed during the moments following what I perceived to be the resurrection of the infinite spirit within my conscious mind.

As I “came to” in the rebirth of my spirit, I felt a knowledge of a presence that has swept through the body of almost everyone in the world. Images of mirrored faces that were strangers came to me like an infinite memory. I saw myself almost every person in history—like a memory that one would expect God to have. Pieces of people, their lives in a library, and every page flipped past me.

Images of butterflies and birds exploded inside my brain, and I felt the experience of brief euphoria and intense fear of obligation, knowing that a special presence had given birth inside me. Since that moment, incredible things have been happening to/around/inside me: Nature/animals/insects, cognition/sight, weather, connections to every living thing from all time, Spiritual visitations, Premonitions.

Colors seem brighter. The randomness of nature becomes God's personal messages to me, like a code I've deciphered—almost to the point of conversational verbal precision. The world is like a video game, and I'm slowly figuring out the cheat codes. It feels as though I'll die soon; when I do, I'll wake up on a table in some machine on the moon, and someone will be standing over me, telling me that “The simulation is over. You passed.”

Since the “beginning,” I've had so many memories of many realities that have passed before me. It would seem as though I bumped into alternate realities—like a needle on a record, hopping out of a groove. People constantly go from being strangers to familiarity, hour by hour, back and forth body and spirit collide and crash with such resistance and impatience, very close to a light switch. Very similarly jarring my senses with sensitivity until proper adjustment.

I still have “real” memories of messages and communication. Spirit to spirit, from friends and family around me. Yet, when questioned in person, they respond with confusion. Many of their actions seem restricted. How much of my experience can/could be accurately measured to be defined in psychological measures? How much could be accurately measured and known to be divine intervention? What is the difference between miracle and coincidence?

Time seems to speed up and slow down. Days and weeks pass so quickly, but a month in the past seems so far away. Everything seems like an elaborate test, staged at the last minute. People seem so baffled by my connection to nature, animals, and the earth. Every faithful believer—in any extreme—seems to bring forth a doubtful counterpart. Each thought can be heard and felt without formal conversation, or even face-to-face. A room full of different conversations can be heard all at once; each topic stored in my mind for replay and response.

I woke up in the mornings to songs and voices of living and dead musicians. They speak, sing, and play new music in their signature styles. Yet, I am not fazed by anything. It has been occurring long enough now, that I just consider it a pleasant inner monologue. Little of my life has occurred without being able to have background music. I've listened to it so much, I can replay my favorite songs—for the most part—between my ears.

Pathways to both spiritual and physical realms are open to me. I've heard little about Hinduism and third eye awakenings—only enough to know that what I'm experiencing isn't totally uncharted. Before I taint my experiences with predetermined notions, analogies, words, and understanding, I'm desperately wanting to self-define and journal my experience as “naked” as possible.

What I remember from my “spiritual birth” experience: I was given a look at memories of people I became/channeled in my sleep. It was as if my body became a temporary character of so many people, from past and present. Sometimes, it feels as if I have become a passenger, looking out my own eyes, but perceiving them with a totally different/new mind. Colors seem brighter and details more defined. My facial expressions change, and I'll often walk differently. Real-life memories go from infinitely clear to hazy. It's difficult to know, for certain, what is in support and what is against. Yet, my heart and mind remain open to truth. I have an “inner vision” similar to what some call a photographic imagination. It plays behind my eyes during most of the day and in my dreams at night. While people speak to me, memories, imagination, pictures, etc. will enter my mind so violently that it often becomes “real” to me.

“YOU LOCK THE DOOR AND THROW AWAY THE KEY. THERE'S SOMEONE IN MY HEAD BUT IT'S NOT ME. AND IF THE CLOUD BURSTS THUNDER IN YOUR EAR. YOU SHOUT AND NO ONE SEEMS TO HEAR. AND IF THE BAND YOU'RE IN STARTS PLAYING DIFFERENT TUNES. I'LL SEE YOU ON THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON.” – “LUNATIC” BY PINK FLOYD

While I was writing the part containing the moon, I could telepathically “hear” energies of other people comment about my words. I got the feeling that I was supposed to keep the information pertaining to the moon or other things secret as to not expose too much about what was actually going on. With a certain amount of cynicism, I wrote these assumptions off until I could later test the theories to see if the same intentions would repeat similar ambient reactivity. I figured that this was a safe way to determine if what I was sensing was a certain brand of paranoia or deeply-seeded illusion that I had yet to work out of my subconscious.

Later, when I challenged this belief system, I listened further into the dialogue that was occurring behind the focus of my ear, at a distance. Any time that I would challenge the ideas of a previously-established religion or belief system in a way that would cause people to question their place, I could feel the pressure of my environment increase. However, it did not mean that I was wrong, but more that a behind-the-scenes authority wanted to claim power and influence over the population.

“FLIP-SCREEN HYPER-SHEEN—CLEAN CODE. THE POLICE HAVE ME WRITING DREAMS, TO RELEASE THE INTENTION BEHIND THE MEANS. BECAUSE IN THE END, IT STARTS AT “GO.” – “PRODIGAL SUNRISE” BY JD STAHL

What I was experiencing and revealing in my observations and writings—as well as during my daily experiences—was an unending set of miracles and synchronicities that had never been witnessed before in history. Because I never had any formal training or education in any religion, my capacity for conceptualizing these experiences was unlimited. Essentially, I didn't have any confirmation bias or subconscious platform unto which I would compare my experiences or visions. Therefore, I was “blessed” by not being formally exposed to any formal belief system.

At the end of this journal entry, I even made a comment that I never even had been introduced to what a spiritual awakening was or what happened during moments of spiritual enlightenment. Everything that I felt, witnessed, perceived, or experienced was therefore completely organic—never the product of any specific belief system or previously-learned concept of divination. However, the more that I sought to learn about others who had previous experiences—spoken of in every religion, belief system, or historical account, unlocked the door to more and more visions that I had in these moments. Every single thing I have learned from this point in time has only ever deepened my understanding of this moment—when the energy of the Infinite Spirit was reborn within my physical body.

De-Feeted Sebau Fiends that Thump from the Corner Maat

“RHYMES OVERFLOWING, GRADUALLY GROWING. EVERYTHING IS WRITTEN IN THE COLD, SO IT CAN COIN-CIDE, MY THOUGHTS TO GUIDE, 48 TRACKS TO SLIDE. THE INVINCIBLE, MICROPHONE FIEND RAKIM. SPREAD THE WORD, 'CAUSE I'M IN E-F-F-E-C-T. A SMOOTH OPERATOR OPERATING CORRECTLY, BUT BACK TO THE PROBLEM, I GOTTA HABIT, YOU CAN'T SOLVE IT, SILLY RABBIT. THE PRESCRIPTION IS A HYPERTONE THAT'S THOROUGH WHEN I FIEND FOR A MICROPHONE LIKE HEROIN.” – “MICROPHONE FIEND” BY ERIC B. AND RAKIM

The more I read the things I wrote while in different states of awareness, the more I am able to recall certain visions, feelings, or conceptual maps that reveal the nature of each vibrational plane/dimension. Essentially, on every different level of awareness, I had stored a completely different visual perspective, purpose, meaning, and relative patterns which can naturally discern the difference between truth and non-truth. What is revealed by applying these patterns exposes all hidden information, relationships, and connections that maintain the energetic connections between planes—like a metaphysical phone operator that sits behind the scenes and listens in to all the conversations in a telepathic phone network—throughout all time and space. By being able to broaden my perspective on multiple planes, I am able to more accurately map the vibrational densities in a metaphysical language which can be symbolically translated by any number of different individuals.

By speaking vaguely in symbols in regard to the mapping of these planes of consciousness, I allow for others to be able to substitute their own personal patterns or relationships that will make it easier to engage the personification of emotional and logical intelligence. By being able to apply oneself equally in both subjectivity and objectivity, energy is free to manifest without conditions. Absent of conditions, exceptions, or bias, the purest expression of “love” or “compassion” can be brought forth within those who are open to receive the transmission. Instead of this telepathy being delivered from something that feels external, the intuitive vision comes entirely from within.

“THE FUTURE IS COMING DOWN THE LINE. I JUST WANNA KNOW IF YOU’RE WITH ME THIS TIME. I’VE BEEN FRANTICALLY SEARCHING BEHIND THEIR EYES, BUT MY HEART WON’T PLAY WITH THE HYPNOTIZED. AND THE CONSCIOUS TRUTH DISGUISE THE LIES. WHEN YOU STAND ON THE FENCE, YOU ONLY HIDE. FORGIVENESS FLEES FROM CONDESCENDING SIDES. BUT THESE GAMES WE PLAY ONLY FIND OUR PRIDE.” – “GLITCHES” BY JD STAHL

It was essential to me to be able to personalize my learning experience as I was able to develop my intuitive awareness. Without being able to follow a path that seemed both personalized as well as universal, I may have never been able to reach beyond the planes that were dominated by other limiting belief systems. If we honor ideas, concepts, labels, or definitions which are dependent on anything external, we are not capable of going beyond group karma or subjective pools of collective consciousness that anchor us into lower planes.

When we are incapable of being able to honor both subjective and objective consciousness as interdependent forces, we cannot escape mental slavery. This is often true primarily because we are taught or otherwise feel it is forbidden or impossible to believe anything that has not been validated by another person, group, or otherwise backed up by repetitive experiments that yield empirical data. Paradoxically, of course, in order for anyone to engage with the highest source of their spirit-soul's divinity, they must be willing to have faith in their experiences—even when challenged by every other human being in their environment.

Equally, we must be willing to recognize the same oppression that exists as the result of our long-held belief systems, ideals, and subjective definitions of what is “real,” possible, or “allowed” to occur. It is this complex system of limits, bad faith practices, and toxic social norms that populate our metaphysical ego—thereby causing it to manifest metaphysically as our identity. Therefore, all of these ideas and concepts that we have accrued in terms of ego/identity must eventually be destroyed before we are able to evoke our true spiritual sovereignty. In a state of personal sovereignty, seeking truth is no longer an ambition, but a natural state of being—similar to how we breath without having to do it consciously. As a result, our relationship with the universe becomes a natural process of transmutation with the ambient energy of both self and non-self/environment—free from exceptions, doubts, or any desire/need for validation.

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“SEVEN ARE THE MANSIONS OF THE HOUSE OF THE MIGHTY; THREE GUARDS THE PORTAL OF EACH HOUSE FROM THE DARKNESS; FIFTEEN THE WAYS THAT LEAD TO DUAT. TWELVE ARE THE HOUSES OF THE LORDS OF ILLUSION, FACING FOUR WAYS, EACH OF THEM DIFFERENT. FORTY AND TWO ARE THE GREAT POWERS, JUDGING THE DEAD WHO SEEK FOR THE PORTAL. FOUR ARE THE SONS OF HORUS, TWO ARE THE GUARDS OF EAST AND WEST OF ISIS; THE MOTHER WHO PLEADS FOR HER CHILDREN, QUEEN OF THE MOON, REFLECTING THE SUN. BA IS THE ESSENCE, LIVING FOREVER. KA IS THE SHADOW THAT MAN KNOWS AS LIFE. BA COMETH NOT UNTIL KA IS INCARNATE. THESE ARE MYSTERIES TO PRESERVE THROUGH THE AGES. KEYS ARE THEY OF LIFE AND OF DEATH. HEAR YE NOW THE MYSTERY OF MYSTERIES: LEARN OF THE CIRCLE BEGINNINGLESS AND ENDLESS, THE FORM OF HE WHO IS ONE AND IN ALL.” – THOTH/HERMES TRISMEGISTUS

As an even greater test of this personal strength and faith, there will be people who attempt to agree with you, but only as a means to pull you towards their personal experiences. In these moments, we must fight our own inclination to completely merge our beliefs with another—no matter how close they may seem to be. It is truly only by holding the dimensions of both personal and group that one can truly negotiate their place above all that is believed to be unique or separate. Both polarities must be analyzed in order to determine the constants between them both. That which is generally-applied as patterns or consistencies is the only undisturbed energy of absolute truth which is able to remain after sacrificing both ego and objective awareness into the fire as we transition through the threshold between duality and the One.

Preference is merely a method of language. Repulsion and rejection are also different methods of language. All of these qualities—in their purest form—are another notch on a decoder ring that exposes a contextual language that relates to a unique plane or vibrational frequency (density) of conscious awareness. When we are able to translate the blind energy of our environment into these planes without preference or attachment, we transmute that which is projected upon us back into its raw, formless, potentiated form. After we fill these planes with enough raw energy, we master the language and are able to claim it is our “own” from moment to moment. Similar to how Solomon captured certain demons in order to obtain the “Solomonic Keys of Life,” we are able to capture personality characteristics of extreme polarity, balance or “judge” them, and then use them with discernment in order to achieve mastery in any possible situation or ambient environment.

“SO I TURNED IT UP FASTER THAN A SPEEDING KNIFE, STRONG ENOUGH TO PLEASE A WIFE. ABLE TO DROP TODAY'S MATH IN THE 48 KEYS OF LIFE.” – “DOOMSDAY” BY MF DOOM

As these qualities are patterns of energy that are held within the metaphysical consciousness of any individual, by mastering these “keys” to mastery or ownership, we are able to manipulate any other human being when they maintain certain vibrations. By mastering these planes, we can—at will—alter our cellular vibration. This ability allows us to communicate telepathically to the subconscious of any individual who is equal to or below the plane's vibration. Therefore, the more we are able to master the various planes of consciousness, we are not only freed from the possibility of being manipulated by ambient frequencies, but we are also able to manifest our dreams into the physical reality. We enlist others in our endeavors by learning how to use words, language, energy, frequency, and vibration in ways that are reconciled with Natural Law.

Above all separate entities, there is but one singular presence—a nonjudgmental awareness or supervisor which is above all others. This singular source has but one purpose: the maintenance of Natural Law and the preservation of energetic integrity of unconditional love (balance between chaos and creation). When one attains source consciousness, balance becomes apparent throughout—in various planes, dimensions, timelines, densities, etc. From this position of spiritual authority, all causes and effects are perfectly aligned. All energy of pleasure, pain, life, death, etc. are all equally revered as necessary to maintain balance. This non-judgmental authority is directly connected—and intimately associated—to everything in the physical world, throughout all time and space. To exist in this position, one cannot possess favor, preference, or any dualistic notions of “good” vs. “evil.”

In order to be able to transfigure our physical selves into this higher energy, we have to become aware of our mental/emotional attachments. Basically, we have to practice looking at people and events in the physical world from a unified perspective. This can be difficult for people, however. Trying to perceive both murder and the birth of a newborn child from the same equanimous perspective goes against so much of our human nature. Yet, it is the imbalance between our human nature and our faith that perpetuates the cycles of pain and prevents us from being able to graduate beyond the wheel of death and rebirth. It is then our divine duty to be both nonreactive to external stimuli at the same time as we are able to maintain compassion for those who are still “lost” in perspectives of reality which are not able to go beyond linear time.

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“SINGULAR ORGANIZATION, ASTRAL MASKS—TAKEN FACES. A REMOTE, NON-LOCAL NATION. SHE WINS ALL THE RACES. SILVER-CORDED FASCINATION. FIBER-LACED SPACE CASE. SHAPE-SHIFTING REPUTATION. CANAL-FLUID HALLUCINATION. FROM BOTTOM TO THE TOP. IT’S ALREADY GOT.” – “BOTTOM TO THE TOP” BY JD STAHL

As one continues to identify with/as this singular source of consciousness (The One), the more they will come face to face with the paradox itself. Though the feelings of this confrontation with our spirit-soul's highest vibration is difficult to conceptualize, one may be able to negotiate their own personal perception of the event if they are able to release their attachment to their psyche or psychological “self.” By releasing our attachment to the shadow of our soul's reflection (egoic persona), we are then capable of accepting the multiplicity itself as a reflection of our true authentic representation—our highest state of metaphysical “being.”

Reconciling our identity with/as the paradox would be like trying to flip through a deck of cards and fully knowing that you are each card in the deck—each one being your one and only identity. However, since the cards pass so quickly in front of our eyes, as every transition occurs, we release completely to accept the following identity to its fullest. This process would continue without any end, absent of favor or preference, and even without judgment or comparison from one to the other. In a sense, our entire metaphysical consciousness, psyche, and even cellular vibration are free from limitation. By being able to maintain both polarities—the self and non-self—we allow our consciousness to shift planes and timelines freely.

“KNOWLEDGE: THE KING OF THE PROVISIONAL INDIVIDUAL. WE AWAIT THE SPIRAL TURNING STRAIGHT. THE SACRIFICE OF FRIENDS. TEMPORARY RESIGNATION TO AN END, BEFORE A BEGIN. AN EXHALE BEFORE THE BREATH. A TEA PARTY WITH THE LAST THING LEFT. BEFORE BEING DESTROYED BY THE BREACH OF ABUNDANCE; ONLY TO BE FOLLOWED BY THE FLOCK THAT ONCE PUSHED YOU OFF THE DOCK. A TICK OF THE CLOCK. ON THE DOOR, A KNOCK.” – “SEEDS” BY JD STAHL

As this shifting occurs between planes for a long enough period of time, we slowly attune ourselves with the intuitive vibrations—similar to being able to attune oneself to the seemingly random pattern of a flock of birds. Instead of being able to predict the flight path of the flock, we just come into a “knowing” of the pattern; therefore, we are able to act, but not from any rational or comparative identity or ego. As we merge into the collective vibration, we release any tendency to identify as a separate entity, withdrawing the focus of our energy away from our physical senses and reallocated to our intuition. Through our 3rd eye or intuitive clair-essence senses, we are able to experience both self and non-self through the senses of any entity in which that vibration is active. Identifying with the highest vibration—shared by all entities—is how one partakes in omniscience or omnipresence. This is the identity of the “One.”

As any one reaches the heights where the “One” resides beyond duality, separation, or fragmentation, the natural tendency is to experience a certain state of perpetual “awe” or bliss. At first, the emotional response we feel to identifying with both creator and creation is a mixture of disbelief or subjective pleasure, after we have accepted both polarities, we begin to realize that it is simply our natural state. Bliss, eternal joy, universal consciousness and intelligence IS our natural state. By comparing the facial expressions that we have during these moments of satori or bliss to the expressions of very young children, it is much easier to recognize the similarities. In this state of consciousness, our cellular vibration more closely resembles that of small children, absent of dense vibrations caused by ego.

As children, we exist as the “One.” Every child remains in this omniscient state until they are taught otherwise by their environment. Even if a parent is not attempting to teach separation, if they subconsciously maintain a perception of the world that does not satisfy the paradox, the child will absorb these dense vibrations telepathically. Therefore, our mere presence has the capacity to communicate intelligence based on the vibrations that we produce from our heart center (heart chakra). Whenever we release our ego and return to the vibration of innocence that we maintained in our childhood, we are able to return to the stream of consciousness that leads us closer and closer to the singular source (Father/One/Singularity) from which all things in physical creation were made manifest; a vibration so perfect that its authority is above any “thing” which exists in space or time.

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“THROW UP YOUR DUBS LIKE WU-TANG. WHO BANG HARDER THAN THAT NIGGA BAILIN' THROUGH YOUR HOOD WITH TWO CHAINS? SWANGIN' LIKE HE'S NUTS, 'CAUSE HE DON'T GIVE A FUCK.” – “GET USE TO IT” BY ICE CUBE

After the experience of seeing through the eyes of an infinite number of different people, I doubted that the future could ever match or exceed the intensity of that moment or vision. However, such a belief is carried by the majority of people from day to day. Though bliss is readily available for us to receive from moment to moment, many of us choose to close our hearts and minds to the possibility of something greater coming to elevate us from within. Eventually, after learning to prioritize fear of vulnerability over bliss, we trade our omniscient awareness for false assurances of safety. As a result, miracles do not necessarily stop occurring, but the density caused by our lack of faith lowers our vibration to a state of awareness where we are unable to process the presence of synchronicities. After a long enough period of time, it becomes easier to claim ignorance than it is to return to the necessary sensitivity and vulnerability that we reintroduce us to our highest selves.

Fortunately, I was not necessarily someone who was ever really afraid of excess—even if the possibility of death was present. I wasn't necessarily suicidal during this time in my life—not in the least. In only about a month, I had just experienced a continuous set of events and visions that completely eliminated any doubt or lack of faith in the perfection of all things. Not only had I been able to accept the possibility of my own death, but for a while, I had believed that I had already “passed over” into a completely different world altogether.

“CLASSICAL GOLD AND UNCONDITIONED SOUL. ORIGINAL WRAPPED IN TWINE. A FOREVER MIND. A UNIVERSAL CRY. THE OVERLOOKED SEA FROM YOUR BALCONY. EFFERVESCENT BEAUTY FROM OMNIPRESENT PRIME. CHEMICAL RECONSTRUCTION OF DNA LINE. COMMUNICATION FROM FOLDED LIES. A MISUNDERSTOOD DREAM, FROM THE PLAYER OF A MILLION LIVES. PRESS PLAY. LISTEN. WHO AM I? WHEN AM I TONIGHT?” – “MIRROR” BY JD STAHL

While I was still physically present and active, my senses had experienced more events that I previously believed to be “impossible” than those I felt were standards for the physical system of “reality.” This is a certain paradigm shift so great that it would be as if I had dreamt of being able to fly, only to wake up in bed to realize that I actually could fly. After enough days of flying while being awake, it became the new “normal.” As I acclimated to the presence of living in a sea of constant miracles and anachronistic moments, I stopped fighting or challenging it with my rational mind. Instead, I adapted to it as fast as I could.

By adapting to this new perception of reality, I adopted a new, higher, more concentrated language. The more I adapted myself to this entirely new reality, the more I was able to amplify my intuition. From a higher vibration of intuition, I experienced clear visions. I was not only able to “see” things on different planes of consciousness, alternative timelines, but I could also see through the eyes of any other being within a certain frequency bandwidth. In quantum science, this phenomenon is related to the sharing of information via “mirror neurons” in the brain. Any photon of light that enters these neurons is immediately shared, communicated via quantum entanglement.

At certain times, I was able to feel my internal signal amplify beyond the boundaries of spacetime. I was able to tell when I was being elevated out of my normal vibration because I was sensitive to the vibration of my own cells. Though I considered myself sensitive to my bodily reactions before these experiences, the recent set of events had increased that sensitivity tenfold—or more. I recognized that my vibration would increase when certain people were around me, occasionally when I smoked pot, when I would listen to certain music, or late at night when most people were asleep. Though I had not yet observed the environmental factors to the fullest degree, I made it a conscious choice to pay attention to the variables that were present when the events would occur. At a point in the future, I would then be able to return on a higher plane so that I could observe the conditions surrounding each event from a higher perspective.

“BLANKETED BY CONFUSION ON THE DECK OF HOPE. AND YET THE VISION REMAINS TRUE. PLOTTING THE DECISIONS BETWEEN ME, BETWEEN YOU, IS THE NATURE OF THE UNIVERSE. MULTIPLICITY IN NUMBERS AND DIRECTION FROM ABOVE.” – “MOSAIC” BY JD STAHL

By being attentive to every possible variable, I increased my sensitivity to my direct environment. It was like a bat who uses sonar to detect nearby objects. Intuitively, I made a conscious decision to amplify my sensitivity to errant vibrations that were around me from moment to moment. By doing so, I was actually able to detect the presence of vibration itself—even while my eyes were closed. Whenever I could feel the presence of an equal or higher vibration than myself from moment to moment, I would attenuate myself to it until I could match it. Whenever I would match that vibration, I would close my eyes and share a view with the other person, partially experiencing the energy that was arriving through their senses. The ability to share sensory information was not always received at the same level, but on a gradient that contained an infinite number of possible environmental variables.

As I became more capable of telepathically “making contact” with certain entities in my immediate environment, I was able to communicate with them. Certain nights, I would lie in my bed, listening to music, tuning into whatever plane I could sense—nearby or at a distance. One night, while I was listening to music in bed with the lights out, I was taken to a completely different plane of reality—complete with vision, sound, emotion, and even conscious awareness/knowledge.

Assign the Mutiny

JD Stahl (03/25/2018) Climbing up to you, my Lord, Grasping at each golden rung. Each breath with pain and penance, Brings back to mind all that I have done. Walking through the rainbow. Finding streams and trees. Road maps and mirrors, Searching for you within me. I Am, and you are here. Manifestation of internal station. Spirit through cells and fences. Bringing to the population. Creating new routes for you, Based on the purest intentions. Actions exceed above their truth. Creating a new future, past inception. And this is how it all happens. Listen to these specific instructions. Let these words bounce off the mirror. Incorporate into your own production. The language is made on the fly. You make the code with all their eyes. Don’t hold too fast, they’ll guide. Draw with angels, the pictures high. The tests come to you, Like whispers in your ear. One praises you and one shames. It’s up to you which one you hear. Individuality and answers of “me.” In this mutiny, stern to bow. I must find this divine identity. I know now I’m deaf to questions how. Soothe and calm your humanity. You are not deaf to those you see. I promise my eternal company, Once you sacrifice your privacy. Fear not, young children, I plead. For illusion is home to us all. Do not hide your darkness from light. Not now, and never shall we fall.