(B03C36) Chapter 36: The Decan Chamber Mirror

Hathor Temple in Dendera, Egypt

Tuned-Out Telepaths Takeover Funhouse Schools Where Coral Curriculum Reefers Double-Tap-Dance on the Glass Ceilings of a Ticked-Off Purple People-Eater

YET I AM THE MIRROR TO YOUR PRECIOUS MOMENTS. UNLINED AND UNLOCKED AND ALL BY TIME, STOLEN. FORTY-FIVE AND TWO-TENTHS SHORT OF INFINITY. NAME ME THE SECONDS TO HIGHLIGHT MY FINAL PLEA.” – “THE PUPPET'S REPLY” BY JD STAHL

Once we have broken free from our dependencies on the physical body to determine the nature of reality, we have already entered the metaphysical world. When we place the focus of our energy upon that which is neither physical nor spiritual, but both, we change from being merely participants in our lives to being sovereign beings who co-create reality. This co-creation process is one we engage with ourselves, pulling from the etheric spiritual spaces above us (higher vibration), through the transitional thresholds, and translated into intention, action, word, or metaphysical expression (passion). Through this transmutation process we take that which is dualistic or in separation and return it to a state of potentiation where it can then be channeled into/onto whatever we place our focus.

The process of learning how to transition between our ego and the collective consciousness, therefore, is one that we develop over time. As we reflect upon ourselves intuitively or through sensual observation, our work takes us closer and closer to achieving balance. In this state of balance, we are able to act purely from dharma, avoiding karma. More simply, our actions are reflections of our external world. While our actions or emotions may go from one extreme to the next, we do not identify with them, but instead view them as corrective energies from which we use to determine the hidden (darkened) nature of the world around us—the energies which are suppressed, hidden, or disguised.

“YOU SAY YOU WANT A LEADER, BUT YOU CAN'T SEEM TO MAKE UP YOUR MIND. I THINK YOU BETTER CLOSE IT AND LET ME GUIDE YOU TO THE PURPLE RAIN. PURPLE RAIN, PURPLE RAIN. PURPLE RAIN, PURPLE RAIN. IF YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SINGING ABOUT UP HERE. C'MON, RAISE YOUR HAND.” – “PURPLE RAIN” BY PRINCE

As our vibration increases, all that we previously suppressed is given passage through the threshold between our conscious and subconscious mind. In this way, we become more actively conscious of the patterns in our lives that previously governed us. These deeper patterns are what write the scripts of the repetitive cycles and experiences in our lives. Every single lesson, relationship, and endeavor in our lives is a direct product of these higher-order energy patterns. There isn't anything that occurs in the external physical world that isn't directly related to one or more of these recursive patterns. As our consciousness elevates, we are pulled (electromagnetically) into situations which give us the opportunity to process out the residual vibrations which anchor us into more dense planes of consciousness.

There are moments when we are flooded with emotions, forced to confront the demons of our subconscious. However, these spiritual archetypes are merely a reflection of the more preferential models of personal character. In order to be able to graduate from duality, we are required to confront our opposites—and by doing so, accept them as equally necessary to maintain the whole. Often, when we are confronted with ideas or reflective images of our suppressed anger, resentment, trauma, etc., our natural response is to react in one form or another. Whenever we lose our composure, however, it only exposes that there are still areas within our subconscious mind that still require that we process out our residual karma. This doesn't mean that we are not allowed to react. It only means that we do so with full awareness. Therefore, the light of our higher awareness (crown chakra) consumes our ego, erasing doubt, regret, or any trace of victim mentality.

Whenever we bring this area of our subconscious (the battle between ego and spirit-soul) to the light of our awareness, we are then able to make adjustments or otherwise reconcile them into balance. The more we present these areas of our subconscious with the opposing force, the more opportunities that we have to rewrite our subconscious programming so that we are able to maintain sovereignty (non-reactivity to environmental variables/triggers). A spiritual teacher (guru) is any thing or idea which presents us with the opposing force of our suppressed energy. It does us no good to merely cover up things that are uncomfortable, but instead be repeatedly confronted with them until we are no longer susceptible to their manipulative attempts to wrangle our emotions. This is self-mastery and the way that we free ourselves from being controlled by external forces or influences.

“WHO CALLED THESE DEAD TO DANCE? WAS IT THE YOUNG WOMAN LEARNING TO PLAY THE 'GHOST SONG' IN HER BABY GRAND? WAS IT THE WILDERNESS CHILDREN? WAS IT THE GHOST-GOD HIMSELF, STUTTERING, CHEERING, CHATTING BLINDLY? I CALLED YOU UP TO ANOINT THE EARTH. I CALLED YOU TO ANNOUNCE SADNESS FALLING LIKE BURNED SKIN. I CALLED YOU TO WISH YOU WELL—TO GLORY IN SELF LIKE A NEW MONSTER; AND NOW I CALL ON YOU TO PRAY.” – “NEWBORN AWAKENING” BY THE DOORS

If we are trying to watch a movie and we continuously hear a clock ticking in the background, eventually we will be able to tune the ticking sound out of our conscious awareness. By doing this, we are using our metaphysical consciousness to cancel out certain energy. To do this, we must occupy the opposing force, calling our subconscious to create the reciprocal so that silence can be perceived—at least consciously, but not necessarily subconsciously. For the same reason, we are able to have relationships with people and get used to the things that would otherwise cause us to fall out of balance. When these people or situations leave our lives, we feel empty for a certain period of time. This causes us to confront ourselves again—but to an even greater degree than when someone was here to help us through.

Relationships which are established to prevent us from confronting our insecurities are based more on conditional love. This means that we have subconsciously used other people to take on aspects of ourselves that we refused to face. Even if these relationships are not romantic, familiar, or close, we impose expectations on them as if we owned them. When these people don't give us what we “need,” we have a habit of running away or changing the way we see them—even attacking them or making attempts to get others to see them negatively as to preserve ourselves from having to face our insecurities. In this way, we can find ourselves running to substance use, addictive tendencies, or complete fantasy worlds where we are able to live out illusions and fairytales—anything where we do not have to recognize that we are not in control of the balance of nature, karma, and truth.

Apis Bull (left) and Orion (Nebertcher or "Most High") (center) sharing the Eye of Horus on the Boat of a Million Years

Thunder-Bird-Dogs and Poultry Guys Bake Rake Cakes Where Nebertcher Umbrellas Pitch Catchers of Knowledge that Rain Supreme as One Awaits Dialectic Detonation

“AND WHAT IS THIS TRUTH WITHOUT THE LIE THAT HAS BEEN SOLD? EXHAUSTION, A SOOTHING RELEASE OF EXPECTATION. BOTH SIDES OF THIS SEEM TO BE ENRAGED IN THIS MESS. BUT WHAT A CONSTANT BLESSING AWAITS IN SOLITUDE. WHAT FRIENDS SUPPORT THE TRUTH ABOUT BOTH SIDES?” – “HOPE” BY JD STAHL

When we find ourselves in periods of silence or solitude—completely removed from the external world—these intuitive images and situations are brought forth from the depths of our subconscious. Each vision is yet another opportunity to find clarity within the confusion between our physical and non-physical nature. In the mirrored dimensions of our metaphysical consciousness, our spiritual selves battle and war against the dense physical vibrations that emanate from our cells and tissue. Once we become conscious of our inner duality in this way, it becomes easier to transition through the withdrawal period as our addictions to physical vibrations are called forth and corrected.

This type of “fasting” can occur through food consumption, removal from our external social environments, or the denial of our preferences, opinions, comforts, or protection from our personal fears. Even our defense mechanisms which have protected us emotionally from confronting our deepest traumas are like drugs that we have allowed to hypnotize our conscious minds into a perpetual sleep state. Once we confront our fears and traumas to the point where we no longer react out of composure, it is only then that we can begin to see the light of our true selves. Once the previous defense mechanisms have completely lost their attractiveness or purpose, the energies we used to devote to them is released and is reallocated intuitively.

“CLOSE YOUR EYES AND TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE? INVISIBLE IMAGINARY PERIMETERS CAGE YOU. FAR BEYOND THE FRAGMENTS OF FEAR YOU THINK YOU NEED IS A HEAVEN THAT WILL RELEASE YOU FROM DUALITY. THIS, EVEN THIS, IS A LANGUAGE THAT EXTENDS. INFORMATION CONSTRUCTED ON CONDENSED FORM, BECOMES THE NORM UPON HIGHEST OF FIRMAMENTS, LIKE A SHIP’S BLIND DECREE TO NEW DISTANT SANDS.” – “WELCOME TO PEACE. WITH LOVE,” BY JD STAHL

Having to confront my own traumas and fears undoubtedly caused mixed feelings. From one perspective, I felt the emotional and physical reactivity that was as if every traumatic moment in my life had been condensed and mixed together, forcing me to confront everything in a period of only a few moments. At the same time, there was nothing more that I wanted to do than to transition through the purification fires—knowing that on the other side I would be forever free of their hold on my heart and mind. While I held both perspectives in balance, I was able to essentially watch myself be re-traumatized by the parts of my conscious mind that I had suppressed for my entire life. In reality, what I was doing was realizing that above all separation, I was the one who imposed these traumas upon myself. On the same level, I was also the hand that caused every other trauma that occurred for every other soul to experience throughout all time and space. In these moments, I was able to see the divine purpose for all suffering. This give-and-take exchange of suffering and grace was as uncomfortable as it was euphoric. By canceling out the light with the darkness, I rose above pain and reunited with the energy above the physical world.

The process of reflection started as I was listening to music in my room. While in this state of flux between states, the meanings of the lyrics changed from one polarity to the next, each time revealing new information of which I had previously been unaware. It was like I was climbing a ladder or unknowns. From rung to rung, I revealed a part of myself that I had previously suppressed. Each time I did this, I would experience a rush of bliss run through my body. While in that state of bliss, I would then face the suppressed fears that were associated with those images or personality traits. In a sense, I was protected by my own yearning to better understand myself—as God/Source/etc. As each new thing was introduced to my consciousness, I was able to see the connecting ties between my present physical reality and timeline and to that of others. Essentially, I was recalling memories that I had not personally experienced in this life or timeline.

“ALL MY FRIENDS ARE HEATHENS, TAKE IT SLOW. WAIT FOR THEM TO ASK YOU WHO YOU KNOW. PLEASE DON'T MAKE ANY SUDDEN MOVES. YOU DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF THE ABUSE. ALL MY FRIENDS ARE HEATHENS, TAKE IT SLOW. WAIT FOR THEM TO ASK YOU WHO YOU KNOW. WELCOME TO THE ROOM OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE ROOMS OF PEOPLE THAT THEY LOVED ONE DAY, STOCKED AWAY. JUST BECAUSE WE CHECK THE GUNS AT THE DOOR, DOESN'T MEAN OUR BRAINS WILL CHANGE FROM HAND GRENADES.” – “HEATHENS” BY TWENTY-ONE PILOTS

In order to awaken to full consciousness, I would not only have to rise above my physical self, but also every other possible physical self that had ever existed—in this timeline, incarnation, and every other. While I was sitting in my living room chair, I bore to witness to an infinite multitude of different lives. Before I was able to behold the more pleasurable timelines, I first had to “earn” my travel by transmuting and transcending through ones that were less than ideal—to say the least. Some of these unfortunate lives and timelines had ended by suicide, physical attacks, car accidents, prison, or other horrendous actions where I had fallen victim to my own vices, negligence, or otherwise.

As each of these visions were processed through my conscious mind, I found it impossible not to react emotionally. Tears fell from my eyes as I felt the full karmic weight of every other life I had ever lived. Each image would remain until I was able to process it out with a fully-felt emotional response. Eventually, I found myself being shown things in my present timeline. As I processed these images, I felt the full karmic weight of even the most insignificant moments. Within seconds, I was faced with the greatest and smallest karmic infractions I had ever made consciously or subconsciously—from every insect that I had ever killed to anyone I had ever lied to or manipulated for my own personal gain.

“NOW YOU KNOW WHY I'M NOT LIKE MOST GUYS. I PERCEIVE THROUGH THE EYE OF THE MOST HIGH.” – “THE REAL” BY KRS-ONE

In a sense, this experience was like being struck by lightning. I was not able to move or otherwise escape what was coming through me, forcing me to confront for my own good and personal conscious freedom. I went from image to image without any break. I wrapped my hands around my head, screaming for relief as I would transition from memory to memory, from life to life, from perspective to perspective. I was essentially being tortured by my higher self. However, without transitioning through this process, I would not be able to fully activate the transmutation process that would allow me to change enough to hold the full energy or vibration of my higher self.

Through this temporary period of elevated vibration, I was forced to withdrawal from the dopaminergic addiction that I had to my false personality/ego. As my vibration increased those concepts, ideas, and illusions which I had previously used to defend myself against my own insecurities and the spun illusions of the external world were falling away. No longer numb to my own ignorance, I found myself awash in intuitive energy. In this higher vibration of consciousness were many layers, each one further dividing the multitudinous sea of infinite souls down to one—The Most High. Viewing the world through this metaphysical omniscience revealed all things—on every level, plane, dimension, density, and timeline. Through the relative channels and associations that connected all things together, my intuitive vision (3rd eye) could travel and return with both information and visual examples of completely different universes, all interwoven together. In a single vision, I could then extract volumes of synchronistic ideas, concepts, and patterns—all explaining and validating each other.

Before I was able to hold the pinnacle state of consciousness, I first had to eliminate the fears, desires, and other distractions from my subconscious. At incredibly fast rates, I fluctuated between bliss and terror. After what seemed like hours—but was only a few seconds—I found myself curled up on the floor, tears pouring out of my eyes, wanting nothing more than to take back my actions. While confronting my traumas in a higher vibration, there was nobody who I could blame or credit for what occurred to me our around me. In my visions, I was the only energy of consciousness that existed, acting out from within the bodies of unconscious others. The world was essentially my own personal theater, video game, or simulation; in each scene or mission, I was being taken through the journey that would create my true, final identity—like ingredients that went into making a cake. Without a single ingredient, the final product would not exist. Therefore, I could see the divine purpose in each moment, all of them fitting together perfectly as if orchestrated and engineered by an extratemporal genius designer or mastermind.

Blood Diamond-Studded Doll Pin-Headers and Table Etiquette Flunkies Get Should Upon by Smoky High-Flying Pit-Bull Bosses with Mother Mary Complexions

“WHEN I FIND MYSELF IN TIMES OF TROUBLE, MOTHER MARY COMES TO ME, SPEAKING WORDS OF WISDOM, LET IT BE. AND IN MY HOUR OF DARKNESS SHE IS STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, SPEAKING WORDS OF WISDOM, LET IT BE.” – “LET IT BE” BY THE BEATLES

It was soon after this brief harrowing experience that my mother arrived at my house. Since she was concerned about my demeanor and appearance—and the fact that I was unable to explain what had happened to me with any clarity—she asked me to go to the hospital to get checked out by professionals. However, after the internal pressure and visions had diminished, I felt completely fine. More than that, I felt elated. In a sense, it was as if I had been living my entire life unable to use my legs. After a few moments of confronting my greatest fears, I was able to “walk” again. With this newfound freedom, I was very peaceful and amenable to pretty much anything that anyone I cared about wanted. My heart was completely open, no longer restricted by any fears. Having essentially walked through the flames of my own personal hell, there was nothing left in the entire world that was able to frighten me or otherwise cause me to cower or back down.

Once I arrived at the hospital, however, I was in for a completely different set of challenges. From one extreme of complete trust and open-hearted faith to having to confront the barriers of mental health, I soon found myself back into a whirlwind of mixed feelings and emotions. After experiencing that which could only be attributed to a spiritual or metaphysical divine intervention, there was no way that I could elucidate the recent events to a professional without being labeled as “insane” or stamped with some type of diagnoses; either would have completely negated the reality of my awakening. Even without claiming that I had intentions to harm myself or others, the nurses admitted me. Angered by their lack of proper protocol and being forced into treatment, it was clear to me that such spiritual advancements on a personal level were not only acceptable to the modern world, but that they were controlled by fear tactics, threat, or imprisonment by a false authority that imposed itself upon those who were seeking to extend their lives beyond the cages of oppressive social gentrification.

“I HAD TO PHONE SOMEONE, SO I PICKED ON YOU. HEY, THAT'S FAR OUT, SO YOU HEARD HIM TOO! SWITCH ON THE TV, WE MAY PICK HIM UP ON CHANNEL TWO. LOOK OUT YOUR WINDOW, I CAN SEE HIS LIGHT. IF WE CAN SPARKLE, HE MAY LAND TONIGHT. DON'T TELL YOUR POPPA OR HE'LL GET US LOCKED UP IN FRIGHT. THERE'S A STARMAN WAITING IN THE SKY. HE'D LIKE TO COME AND MEET US, BUT HE THINKS HE'D BLOW OUR MINDS. THERE'S A STARMAN WAITING IN THE SKY. HE'S TOLD US NOT TO BLOW IT, 'CAUSE HE KNOWS IT'S ALL WORTHWHILE.” – “STARMAN” BY DAVID BOWIE

Though we can suppress the images or experiences that cause us discomfort into our subconscious minds, eventually we will have to face them. If we never free ourselves from the dense physical reality, we will never be able to come face-to-face with our creator—which is our highest self. Through our lives, we still make attempts to hone our personal morality and authenticity so that when these confrontational energies are evoked from within, we are at least able to see how we have progressed over the years. If nothing changes, then nothing changes. The first change we should seek is to open the door to the darkened areas of our subconscious mind that we have suppressed. The doors to these pockets of pain and trauma are guarded by a victim mentality—false light mothers that we have created to dope us into the drunkened narcosis of escaped responsibility. By defeating these barriers of false light and going beyond them, we see the purpose beyond the physical disguises. In essence, we see the exchange of energy that was necessary for our growth.

As these opposites cannibalize each other, we transcend duality and find ourselves resting in forgiveness. These feelings are so rich and “real” to us that we no longer even consider seeking external validation. From this higher perspective, there is really no other option than to rest in complete faith and understanding. Forgiveness becomes apparent in all things, leading us to release the requirement to forgive or be forgiven by anything outside of ourselves. Internal tensions are released primarily through our commitment to making up for the events in our past, not by martyring ourselves or trying to overcompensate, but by being honest enough to find strength beyond the discomforts of possible confrontations.

“BE QUIET AND LISTEN. SIMPLY OBSERVE (NEVER JUDGE) HOW WE ARE FEELING. ONCE WE CAN BE QUIET AND OBSERVE WHAT WE ARE FEELING, WE MIGHT ACTUALLY REALIZE THAT SOMETIMES OUR BURNOUT IS CAUSED BECAUSE OF THE EXPECTATIONS WE CARRY INTO A CERTAIN SERVICE PROJECT….OUR MOTIVES THAT WE BRING WITH US. IF THOSE EXPECTATIONS ARE NOT MET OR OUR MOTIVES ARE SELF-DRIVEN, WE WILL HAVE A TENDENCY TO FEEL “SLIGHTED” OR MAYBE LIKE WE “WASTED OUR TIME”, AND THIS LEADS TO A FEELING OF BURNOUT. OUR OWN EGO GETS US IN TROUBLE EVERY SINGLE TIME. UNTIL WE ARE QUIET AND LISTEN, WE MAY NOT EVEN REALIZE HOW OFTEN, IN THE GUISE OF SERVICE, WE TRY TO IMPOSE OUR VALUES ON OTHERS. BEING THE PERSON THAT “SHOULD UPONS” TAKES A LOT OF OUR ENERGY...REALLY IT DOES.” – RAM DASS

Unfortunately, many social environments or cultures in the world make us feel bad for expressing our true feelings. This causes us to suppress our truths rather than express them. Therefore, even though we have made efforts to correct our metaphysical consciousness (software), we don't allow ourselves to reconcile these energies. Instead, we keep them suppressed and learn to fear truth, even though we no longer identify with the version of ourselves we were previously when those actions occurred. As a result, we form trauma bonds with our own internal illusions, false personas, and narcissistic perspectives on what we believe the world “should” be. By doing so, we only create confusion in our environments or force people to adopt our belief systems under threat of emotional imprisonment—or worse.

By holding onto the truth that I had been shown at the depths of my being, I did my best to hold true only to that example of spiritual salvation. Knowing that I would eventually have to account for even the smallest actions done consciously or subconsciously—like killing a fly without any reason or respect for it as a living creature—I saw the world from a completely different perspective. In a sense, I saw all life—mine and others—through the eyes of God. I was the living energy of Natural Law and karma, now acting from a clean slate where I was no longer associated with my past. Basically, I was living in the true light of balance.

He-Manly Peed in the Millennial Hallway Before Gaffling Swatch Watchers at Self-and-Other White Meat Castle from Nurses who Etch-a-Sketch Rental Subway Daughter Cabooses Filled with 50 Shades of Grayskull Brain Candy

“THE UNDERSTANDING OF ZEN, THE UNDERSTANDING OF AWAKENING, THE UNDERSTANDING OF—WELL, WE’LL CALL IT MYSTICAL EXPERIENCE—IS ONE OF THE MOST DANGEROUS THINGS IN THE WORLD. AND FOR A PERSON WHO CANNOT CONTAIN IT, IT’S LIKE PUTTING A MILLION VOLTS THROUGH YOUR ELECTRIC SHAVER. YOU BLOW YOUR MIND AND IT STAYS BLOWN.” – ALAN WATTS

After watching my life flash before my eyes, forcing me to experience the traumatic events of my life all over again, I was even more sensitive than I was beforehand. My body was still shaking like a rung bell. I was extra careful with the things that I did and the words that I spoke to people. Having gone through an experience akin to spiritual shock therapy, I was extremely attentive to everything around me. Every action was taken slowly, every thought was weighed against the lessons I had just learned, and even my intentions were perceived from a place of non-duality. This meant that I saw both selfish and selfless qualities within every action. By weighing the opposites without denying or favoring either, I could then decide if my following words or actions were even necessary.

Quite often, I found myself frozen in contemplation. So many things were swirling around my mind that it was impossible to ground myself into any one, specific reality. Even attempting to claim one perspective above another would cause me to immediately lose confidence. However, as I would entertain alternatives or layer similar concepts on top of each other, I increased my well-being and felt relief. Any time that I had a moment alone, I found my mind reflecting back upon the past several months, trying to make sense of it all; yet, I was still unable to ground myself. At random moments, I could see the entire construct of reality change and shift. When I was around certain people, these perspectives would change. Like a walking magnet, I was pulled into a completely different reality—like walking into a different movie theater with each new person.

“I'LL GIVE YOU A DOSE, BUT IT WILL NEVER COME CLOSE TO THE RAGE BUILT UP INSIDE OF ME. FIST IN THE AIR, IN THE LAND OF HYPOCRISY. MOVEMENTS COME AND MOVEMENTS GO. LEADERS SPEAK, MOVEMENTS CEASE, WHEN THEIR HEADS ARE FLOWN.” – “WAKE UP” BY RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE

After being admitted to the psychiatric ward at the hospital, I really didn't have much else to do other than think. However, after going from one extreme of freedom to being imprisoned in a building with no access to the outdoors, made me feel so much worse. In a sense, I was like a prisoner, and there was really nothing that I could do to change my present circumstances. What made it worse was that I was expected to speak to certain counselors and tell them about the things I had been thinking, and the set of events that had brought me to being admitted. Unfortunately, I knew that if I would try to be completely honest about my experiences that I wouldn't be allowed to leave. Therefore, I left out the details that would otherwise raise eyebrows or be misconstrued by the medical community.

This brings us back to the beginning of this story—the first “Branch.” While I was in the hospital, locked away from my dog and family, I went through a completely different type of withdrawal. This time, I was detoxing from my entire metaphysical perspective of reality. The symptoms of this awakening were completely unique to the illness relative to drug withdrawal or the traumatic emotionality of my internal confrontations. Even though one needs not to ingest any drugs or other substances to feel the effects of disillusionment, the natural chemistry produced by these illusions flood our physical bodies. As these naturally-produced chemicals are no longer released, we experience feelings of fear, loss, depression, and panic as our body attempts to return to its homeostasis—minus the fantasies/illusions our egos have “injected” to make us feel comforted in the physical world. The feeling of imprisonment—for reasons which I knew deep down went against every beautiful thing I had just come to learn about regarding the universe—inspired an intense rage. In the very depths of my soul, I felt a fire burning; all that fire sought to do was to destroy anything and everything that prevented freedom, truth, or purity.

Turning to balance both extremes of sensitivity and rage was difficult. I was suspended between my internal perspective of reality and the social order of what was popularly-defined as “real.” With the same sense of expediency as I sought in my life-long reflection, I sought out to identify everything in the physical world which was inconsistent with true natural law. In a sense, I was building my case against anything and anyone who would ever try to hold me against my will or otherwise prevent me from receiving my sovereignty while still alive in physical form. Fortunately, because I was focused entirely on seeking truth, my intuition delivered me to truth.

“WE CAN ONLY ESCAPE FROM THE WORLD BY OUTGROWING THE WORLD. DEATH MAY TAKE MAN OUT OF THE WORLD BUT ONLY WISDOM CAN TAKE THE WORLD OUT OF THE MAN. AS LONG AS THE HUMAN BEING IS OBSESSED BY WORLDLINESS, HE WILL SUFFER FROM THE KARMIC CONSEQUENCES OF FALSE ALLEGIANCES. WHEN HOWEVER, WORLDLINESS IS TRANSMUTED INTO SPIRITUAL INTEGRITY HE IS FREE, EVEN THOUGH HE STILL DWELLS PHYSICALLY AMONG WORLDLY THINGS.” – MANLY P. HALL

When I resigned attempts to control the external world or defend myself in the face of others who didn't understand, I could feel a sense of peace wash over me. Trying to hold onto any specific definition of reality would have only created turmoil and increased the rage that was welling inside of me. Therefore, I found that by channeling my energy physically or using it more constructively, I could alleviate my distress—at least temporarily. At the time, I was not yet capable of conceptualizing the nature of multidimensional systems of reality in a way that would encompass every truth into a single perspective. Trying to fit the entirety of the world would only have caused me to take on aspects of psychosis. It wasn't that I was unable to hold the highest perspective of Natural Law, absolute truth, or “God” in my mind, it was that I didn't know how to negotiate it while still in a social environment.

During an awakening, so much energy fills our body that our belief systems and even concept of self is completely overridden by a completely different perspective of reality. This reality is so much larger than what we are used to that it often takes us a while to negotiate the new boundaries of what we believe to be true vs. untrue. While we make these adjustments, it is actually more helpful to experiment with our intuitive awareness rather than allowing someone else to tell us what is either right or wrong. In a sense, during these moments, we are practicing our own authentic balance with truth. We steer blindly, guided only by our intuition, what is either right or wrong. In this way, there really is no way to protect ourselves from experiencing karmic returns or occasionally stumbling on our own misunderstandings.

9/10 Doctors with Dig-Dug Diagnostics Blow Up Fiendish Pop-Copy Columbus Pillers with Rock-Dropping Inter-Netr Daemon Crop Circle Circus Freak Assignments

“EXPLOSIONS, OVERPOWERIN' OVER THE COMPETITION. I'M TOWERIN'. WRECKING SHOP, WHEN I DROP. THESE LYRICS THAT'LL MAKE YOU CALL THE COPS. DON'T YOU DARE STARE. YOU BETTER MOVE, DON'T EVER COMPARE ME TO THE REST THAT'LL ALL GET SLICED AND DICED. COMPETITION'S PAYIN' THE PRICE.” – “MAMA SAID KNOCK YOU OUT” BY LL COOL J

Whenever we allow the external world to define or restrict us from experimenting with our own intuitive awareness, we create a fear-based perspective of reality which only served to prevent us from identifying our true authentic being. Though we can seek out other people to assure us that we are safe, our goal should never to be to return to the safety of our previous boundaries. After we have witnessed a more expanded perspective of the world, any attempt to deny the truths we have seen will only multiply our suffering.

Though we may attempt to fight truth by trying to rationalize it back into the compartmentalized limits of former belief systems, eventually we find that there is no place to hide. The sooner that we can resign even the smallest impositions of truth, the faster we find ourselves naturally ascending to the surface of our pain. As a result, even our past traumas find clarity in the light of truth. Above the surface, all things—in every extreme—find reconciliation with purpose. In the end, none of us are either better or worse than one another. It is only our ignorance or refusal to perceive ourselves and others through the eyes of unified presence that causes us to err, sin, or perpetuate separation. In this sense, it is the concept of competition that opens the door to our toxic nature and causes us to fall into densities that prevent us from ascending into higher states of awareness where we are sovereign beyond the limits of our physical nature. When we are no longer a mere facsimile of our physical vibration, we regain conscious control over how our free will negotiates itself with our dharmic fate.

“I KNEW I WAS THE MAN WITH THE MASTER PLAN, TO MAKE YOU WIGGLE AND JIGGLE, LIKE GELATIN. JUST THINK WHILE I SINK, INTO THE BRAIN STRUCTURE. (DON'T SLEEP ON THE E) YOU SEE, SOMETHING MIGHT RUPTURE. I DON'T TAKE TIME FOR ME TO BLOW YOUR MIND. TAKE A SECOND TO WRECK IT BECAUSE YOU'RE DUMB AND BLIND. SO JUST LOUNGE, CAUSE YOU'RE A MC CLOWN. GO JOIN THE CIRCUS, EPMD IN TOWN.” – “STRICTLY BUSINESS” BY EPMD

After witnessing existence from outside of time, every single person in every linear present moment is in balance—past, present, and future. There is no life that has not been lived by every one of us. Therefore, the more we heal ourselves, the more we can shed light to other people around us—even without taking physical action. It is only through the transmutation of negative (polarized or dualistic) energies into positive (unified or raw) energy that we can process out the karmic energy that prevents us from being able to find union with source energy. As we reach a transcendent union with self and non-self, this source energy is pulled from within our nervous system and willed up our spine via our Cerebrospinal Fluid (CSF).

While we attempt to negotiate higher vibrations of energy into our previous perspective of realty, we eventually recognize the need to expand our beliefs to house a greater truth. If we try to fit our higher state of consciousness into outdated or obsolete systems, we only end up furthering erratic behavior or force ourselves or others to suppress their metaphysical reality so that it cannot reach full term. In this way, we get trapped into repetitive cycles, constantly seeking truth and praying for salvation; but when the opportunities to incorporate greater ideas and update our metaphysical “operating system” arrive, we fall backwards into previous comforts, addictions, attachments, and illusions.

Therefore, in order to allow the necessary transformation to occur, we cannot stay obedient to present-day definitions of religion, psychology, or restrictive authority. Just as Jesus was only obedient to death, we are all called to prioritize our truth above anything, everyone, and under any circumstances. Even with the best of intentions (consciously, not necessarily subconsciously), we cause pain by forcing people to contribute to our illusions, under threat by established systems of physical, psychological, or spiritual governance. All systems hold the capacity for at least partial truth. Therefore, it is not by denying beliefs that we reach higher states, but perceiving the language in which they are expressed from a more ascended position. Truths that are not limiting to our consciousness are expressed figuratively, overlapping with alternative systems, beliefs, and concepts that lead us closer to unity consciousness.

“YET, I STILL KNOW WHAT THE CODE IS. IT’S PROTECTED BY DIAGNOSIS.” – “FROM THE HORSE'S MOUTH” BY JD STAHL  

While I was in the hospital, I eventually came to the realization that it really wasn't anyone else's business what I was feeling internally—whether I was presently troubled by them or not. At the same time, it really wasn't my job to convince anyone else what I had seen or experienced. Whether we arrive upon moments of awakening or conscious expansion from using drugs or gradually, those who have certain mystical experiences are bound to struggle with their personal negotiation with their transformative experiences. The longer one clings to dualism while experiencing an awakening, the more they appear erratic, insane, abnormal, or dangerous. Unfortunately, the only thing that causes people to exhibit harmful symptoms is that their environment doesn't have enough space or consideration for such an expansion of consciousness.

As a result, people who used to live comfortably suddenly experience a suffocating trauma from a claustrophobia of existence. When you can barely explain this to yourself, let alone others, panic sets in. Eventually, the only way that you can breathe is to fold your identity on top of itself, over and over, until you start to exhibit multiple personalities or schizophrenic tendencies. In order to feel comfortable, you have to see things in multiples. If you don't allow for expansion, you will suffocate your self-concept until you choke your soul out of your physical life altogether. However, if you never admit defeat, you eventually develop your intuition enough that you can trust yourself. Trusting ourselves is another form of self-love. This type of unconditional love and trust for self is not something that can be faked; it must be established at the deepest depths of our being. It is only by rooting ourselves in absolute truth that we can claim faith over our external circumstances. Therefore, no matter what is occurring around us, we are able to perceive it from the perspective of purpose—not favor, bias, or preference.

It is only by channeling purpose that we can transcend the boundaries that separate us from Unity/Christ/God Consciousness. We remain in constant union (yoga) with divine sources of energy in every moment that we focus on learning or developing our understanding of alternative perspectives or belief systems. When we are not attached to any specific belief system, our hearts and minds are open to receive the energy of truth. When we not only transmute the energy we receive from our external physical environment but also receive intuitive wisdom from higher planes of conscious awareness, our transfiguration process operates at peak efficiency. It is only through this transformative process that we are “saved” or “delivered” from suffering, confusion, and pain. However, at the same time, we have to be willing to trade our fears for faith.

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“TO BE, OR NOT TO BE: THAT IS THE QUESTION: WHETHER 'TIS NOBLER IN THE MIND TO SUFFER THE SLINGS AND ARROWS OF OUTRAGEOUS FORTUNE, OR TO TAKE ARMS AGAINST A SEA OF TROUBLES, AND BY OPPOSING END THEM? TO DIE: TO SLEEP; NO MORE; AND BY A SLEEP TO SAY WE END. THE HEART-ACHE AND THE THOUSAND NATURAL SHOCKS THAT FLESH IS HEIR TO, 'TIS A CONSUMMATION DEVOUTLY TO BE WISH'D. TO DIE, TO SLEEP; TO SLEEP: PERCHANCE TO DREAM: AY, THERE'S THE RUB; FOR IN THAT SLEEP OF DEATH WHAT DREAMS MAY COME.” – WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE

Our addiction for external validation, comparison, and confirmation is what causes us to fall from grace—not the lack of access or supply to that grace. Most of us just feel that 50% of the grace sourced from different belief systems or higher planes of awareness is forbidden. And yet, the only thing that causes issue is by choosing to adopt belief systems that make things forbidden. Instead of learning to take responsibility for our actions, we are forced into fear-based ideologies which prevent us from learning independently or developing our independent decision-making skills. Therefore, we feel imprisoned by a subjective authority system that controls our thoughts, words, and intentions rather than guiding us to develop and hone our sovereign abilities as metaphysical beings. In this way, we find ourselves demonizing what “could” happen or otherwise forcing someone else's subjective reality upon others—creating karma and perpetuating suffering/confusion on a global scale.

Instead of feeling as if comparisons and competition are the expected norm, it is often best to allow homeostasis to return naturally, over the course of independent learning. Therefore, even though we cannot guarantee an error-free society, at least we can rest knowing that our priority is based on objective truths instead of subjective limits (mental, emotions, or physical slavery). Just as I had felt in my soul a rage burning in the presence of injustice, that fire rests in each of us. While we attempt to negotiate truth in a world where it almost feels illegal to be authentic to our own being, we eventually find ourselves imprisoned inside of our own minds. After years of making attempts to stand up for our personal authenticity, it is easy to fall into the habit of validating the external world's expectations rather than repeatedly experiencing rejection for claiming our sovereignty. As we make our way back to this crossroads, however, we will have to face the same tests, again and again, until we are able to walk boldly, nakedly through a reality where we are the only “thing” to hold onto.

“HEAVEN AND HELL ARE YOUR STATE OF MIND. SEARCH THROUGH YOUR SOUL AND GOD YOU WILL FIND. DON'T LET THE WORLD WRAP YOU IN CHAINS. ADDICTIONS ARE PREDICTIONS PULLING THE REINS. IF YOU CANNOT SEE, YOU WON'T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS. BLINDNESS AND HATE NEVER LEAD TO YOUR DREAMS. THE ANSWERS AND LOVE AWAIT ONLY YOUR RELEASE. WITHOUT KNOWING YOURSELF YOU'LL NEVER KNOW PEACE.” – “OPERATION RAINBOW” BY JD STAHL

However easy it may be to claim a victim mentality in this type of environment, there really isn't anyone stopping us from doing whatever we need to do in order to find peace inside of our authentic truth. As long as we are not imposing our will upon others (physically, psychologically, or spiritually), we should be confident in the endeavor to experiment with our consciousness in any way that we seek. It is only through the processing of the residual karmic energy that we are able to eventually find true peace. We can only receive grace when we allow ourselves to receive it. If we give up or cut short our experiences due to fears, our capacity for responsibility is limited.

To engage with ourselves and the world consciously, we take whatever action we feel will provide an outlet for our authenticity. Again, as long as these actions are not imposing restrictions or expectations on another person, we should be willing to take responsibility and accountability for the things that we do. If we can find confidence in trusting our own decisions while still being willing to account for our thoughts, words, and actions, then we are ready to experience increased sovereignty and grace. If we are unable to live our truth without lying, deceiving, or manipulating others, then we will only ever find ourselves having to go through repetitive cycles.

“YOU HAVE A RIGHT TO PERFORM YOUR PRESCRIBED DUTIES, BUT YOU ARE NOT ENTITLED TO THE FRUITS OF YOUR ACTIONS. NEVER CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE THE CAUSE OF THE RESULTS OF YOUR ACTIVITIES, NOR BE ATTACHED TO INACTION.” – BHAGAVAD GITA 2:47

Taking responsibility for something which we cannot see or define will undoubtedly cause us to experience confusion or strife. However, it is only by learning to trust ourselves that we are able to truly understand the definition of unconditional love—a product of having faith in purpose over preference. The more we develop our understanding of unconditional love, the more we are able to commit to ourselves, regardless of the situation or external circumstances. In effect, our faith and commitment to ourselves—through learning or practice—becomes the energy of the future which pulls us into our highest possible timeline/vibration.

All things being relative, we are electromagnetically attracted to that which is truly meant for us; for better or for worse, equally. When we are committed to seeking that which can only be evoked from within, the rest of the world is led by our light, faith, and confidence. We can either choose to carry the burdens of subjective self and society or we can embody the light which holds a vision of truth in every direction. By committing ourselves to the process of learning—not the end result of our efforts—we are protected by our own grace in every moment. Even though there are no “wrong” answers in regards to reaching a balance between fate and free will, there are things that we can do/not do to eliminate the distance. Our problem is not that we lack the love necessary to bring that light out of us, but that we are misled into believing that we must source love from outside of ourselves. Until we recognize that we have everything we need already within us, we will continue to suffer.

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“I PUSHED MY SOUL IN A DEEP DARK HOLE AND THEN I FOLLOWED IT IN. I WATCHED MYSELF CRAWLIN' OUT AS I WAS A-CRAWLIN' IN. I GOT UP SO TIGHT I COULDN'T UNWIND. I SAW SO MUCH I BROKE MY MIND. I JUST DROPPED IN TO SEE WHAT CONDITION MY CONDITION WAS IN.” – “JUST DROPPED IN (TO SEE WHAT CONDITION MY CONDITION WAS IN)” BY THE FIRST EDITION

After leaving the hospital, I had an even greater appreciation for freedom of thought and belief. I realized after being removed from my constructive environment that the only thing that really mattered to me was to maintain my energetic connection to the universe. Though I still had desires to communicate and interact with other people, I paid close attention to how I engaged with the world. I made sure that my highest priority was my relationship with my spirit-soul and the experiences that led me back to the truest definition of love, faith, and truth. I could just as easily have convinced myself that all I had experienced was merely my imagination; however, after everything that I witnessed, there was no going back to the life I lived previously. I had seen, felt, heard, and knew a world that was far beyond the reaches of anything I had ever known.

Back in the safety of my home and my dog, I resumed my previous commitments—learning different things that would bring me greater clarity. I did everything I could to maintain my connection and further develop the language I was creating with the universe. While I kept the gates open to my intuition, the conversation with both past and future flowed through me. Everything that I learned not only eliminated past confusion but also expanded exponentially my understanding of multiple concepts. Gently, blissfully, I was pulled towards my intuitively-birthed curiosities. I was allowing the highest version of myself to essentially teach me from within. In the depths of my being was the proverbial key to my personal freedom.

“MIND BREAKING UNDER THE CRUST. EYES OF HORUS AND BIRDS BREATHE. REFLECTION SHADOWS ON BROKEN DATA. DREAMS THAT SUFFER PRIDE CAN MATTER. DROPPED DOWN FROM ANOTHER DEGREE HAS RAISED POTENTIAL FREQUENCY. BROKEN RELEASES OF DIVINE DESTINY. UNSTOPPABLE FOCUS. UNMATCHED PASSION. HIGH FROM YOUR SEX AND YOUR DISTRACTION. ARROGANT, POMPOUS, OPEN SUBCONSCIOUS. INVISIBLE FORTH WALL IS BECOMING OBNOXIOUS. CABLES TIED TO PERFECT DESTRUCTION. HUNGRY EYES THROUGH DIGITAL PROMOTION. COPIES, EXTENSION, FORWARD AND BACK. THE LINES CONNECT TO SHOW WHAT YOU LACK. THIS EVENING’S ENTERTAINMENT IS ONLY A TRAP.” – “ALL COMING BACK” BY JD STAHL

In order to maximize the information that I could learn, I chose to eliminate as many things as possible that would slow down or distract me. In this way, it became very easy to stop eating certain foods, increase the time spent exercising, devote time to learning, or take walks outside. I made sure that no matter what I was doing, I would do it consciously—with complete awareness of the lessons being taught to me. Through my physical senses, all things were made new again; not only once, but every moment of every day. Every step I took was yet another shift into a completely different world. As soon as I was able to accept each of these worlds with the same enthusiasm as every other, I would be taken further and further into the unknown. I learned that I was never really happy in the comforts of knowing as much as I found the best version of myself in the process of learning that which is beyond knowing. It was in a suspended state of curiosity where I could reconnect with past, present, and future simultaneously.

In the same way that I previously sought drugs, alcohol, distractions, intimate relationships, external validation, or novelty, I now sought truth. After experiencing such incredible bliss for so long, there was little to compare. It was at this point where I came face-to-face with all of my subconscious programming. In a sense, I felt that I would not only have to be honest and speak truth to maintain my connection, but I would also have to be “good.” However, my present definition of “good” was not something that was generally known or accepted by the rest of the world. Even though I had the best of intentions to help others by leading them towards blissful transcendence, I was unable to do so as long as I was still defining love with conditions.

At this point, I still believed in love that provided favor, preference, and even the willingness to sacrifice one's own morals to support another person. Essentially, I believed that love in the physical world required me to sacrifice my relationship to the universe at large. Unfortunately, even entertaining these ideas in my mind would automatically push me further away from bliss. Even the smallest consolations would increase my vibration and place me in more dense planes of consciousness. Intuitively, I found that anything that I physically consumed—shape, form, or fashion—temporarily caused me to fall down. Every time that I fell, I was incredibly insecure. My insecurity caused me to react angrily; however, this anger and frustration was just a way to defend my feelings of insecurity.

It wasn't that I was insecure in regards to failure—although that was a portion of what I felt at the time. It was more that I knew that I didn't accept myself fully. I was afraid of being able to live my truth authentically, and to every extreme. My deeply-seeded defense mechanisms were intimately tied to feelings of unworthiness. Ultimately, it was my feelings of unworthiness which prevented me from accessing the best version of myself in every moment. Similarly, when anyone is force-fed false, self-serving definitions of sin or righteousness from the external world, they learn to see themselves from a negative perspective for their entire lives. Quite often, these same people can force the same toxic ideas on others as well, spreading and perpetuating pain throughout the population.

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"THE ONLY WAY TO DEAL WITH AN UNFREE WORLD IS TO BECOME SO ABSOLUTELY FREE THAT YOUR VERY EXISTENCE IS AN ACT OF REBELLION." ALBERT CAMUS

The end result of toxic belief systems is a global society which is led by ideas that increase or perpetuate separation. Even our definitions of love are often seen from a conditional perspective. Therefore, the only individuals who are perceived as “righteous” in a toxic world system are those who are complacent or obedient to the toxicity itself. It takes an objective dissent in order to discern the difference between fact and fiction—or to rightly judge one's actions against their intentions. Unfortunately, whenever we seek the knowledge or wisdom to activate this discernment, we are almost undoubtedly perceived as rebels, troublemakers, or anarchic energies.

What makes the purification process even more difficult is that we have to consciously go against our environment at almost every turn nand at the same time. Causing disruption or creating distance—without that being our intention—is done consciously as to not create additional karma. We do this by acting purely from our intuitive objectivity. Therefore, our rebellious or reciprocal dissent is done with the intention to mirror the darkened corners of the collective psyche that the community at large either refuses to make conscious or otherwise has anchored into a dualistic or fragmented (sinful) environment.

Anytime that we see anything as being something “other” than we are—for any reason whatsoever—we are only furthering the cycles of pain and disillusionment. Though we are led with the subjective light of love, our subjective definitions more than not leave others wanting for something they can use to feel safe in their authenticity. It was no accident that I spent so much time alone during this transitional period. It is only by investigating the furthest reaches of our intuition that we can hope to reach the truest version of ourselves. Anything that we surround ourselves with has a way of creeping into our subconscious minds—consciously or subconsciously. Over time, these ideas can completely change the way we look at ourselves and the rest of the world.

“CHALLENGE ALL THAT’S CONVENTIONAL. EXPAND ACROSS MULTI-DIMENSIONAL. ERASE THE LIES BORN FROM FORMALITY. EVIL HIDES IN THEIR REDUCTIONIST REALITY.” – “PROPHECY 13” BY JD STAHL

If any of us seek redemption through the embodiment of truth, we must be willing to let go all of the things in our life that previously prevented us from accessing higher planes of conscious awareness. Unfortunately, this is where many people run into problems. The truth is that our highest state of consciousness is virtually unlimited. Unless we are willing to perceive life paradoxically as both everything and nothing at the same time, we will naturally fall to whatever subjective definition of love, salvation, or absolution that another person sells us through policy, religion, spirituality, psychology, or socio-cultural relationships. If we seek to go beyond the beyond and truly experience unconditional love, we must be willing to detach from those systems of belief long enough that we are able to discern which parts of them are aligned with truth and which ones are limited to subjectivity. That which cannot be reconciled with the objective truth limits us. Our belief in subjective limitations is what causes our soul's energy to leak out of us or otherwise be sucked out of us in the same way that addictions or other materialistic, self-serving ideals drain us like metaphysical vampires.

This means that we don't have to completely eliminate religion, transcendent practices, plant medicines, or other methods that lead us to union beyond duality; it only means that we should be able to recognize what parts of these methods have the capacity to create separation or exacerbate the fragmentation of the population. Once we have experienced truth and love without conditions, only then can we truly find confidence in our offering of unbearable compassion. The “unbearable” aspect of compassion includes the things we must do, think, feel, or communicate as a priority to truth beyond anything that is physical. It is only in the physical aspect of existence can the residual energy and vibration store the sins of our past. Living materialistically for the sake of physical desires will only resurrect the ghosts of our past—or the collective past—forcing us to live as pleasure-seeking beasts through which dense spirits trap us into repetitive cycles.

“CENTER MY SOUL, PAY THE TOLL, WRITE THE SCROLLS. EVERYTHING COMES THROUGH THE HOLE IN MY HEAD. WORK FOR TIME, QUICK REWIND, SWIM THROUGH LIES. HYPNOTIZE THE CHILDREN TO ENSURE THE TRUTH BE TOLD. THE LABYRINTH CALLS, STORED IN STALLS, STUCK IN WALLS. COMBINE THE STORIES TO REWRITE MY FINAL PLEA.” – “ICARUS DREAMS” BY JD STAHL

Every single morning that we awaken, we are offered another chance to be reborn. As our eyes open, we can choose to completely rewrite our own history; not necessarily the actions, but the perspective from which we have lived each moment. It is only through our free will that we can deliver ourselves from lower states of awareness into the higher planes of consciousness where we can find parts of ourselves that have purposefully called forth every single experience in our lives—to the greatest pleasures to the most intense traumas. When we are ready and willing to receive ourselves from an unconditional perspective, then we are willing to invite the world into our own hearts where actual change can be made—consciously. Without opening our hearts to the world, we will not be able to see the world objectively or in unconditional truth.

It is more than our responsibility; it is our divine purpose to transmute the energy encompassing our entire lives into the raw substance of potentiated energy that we can then offer to others. Even with the best of intentions, our offerings to others while still trying to claim righteousness or subjective definitions of “good” will only ever perpetuate the time structure that prolongs the process of ascension on a global scale. In a sense, we must be willing to go through the birthing pains of being brutally honest—from every angle, perspective, and definition. This practice should continue until we are at least able to meet ourselves in a place of true authenticity.

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“O YOU'RE ON THE PROWL WONDERING WHETHER. SHE LEFT ALREADY OR NOT. LEATHER JACKET, COLLAR POPPED LIKE ANTENNA. NEVER KNOWING WHEN TO STOP. SUNGLASSES INDOORS, PAR FOR THE COURSE. LIGHTS IN THE FLOORS AND SWEAT ON THE WALLS. CAGES AND POLES.” – “NUMBER ONE PARTY ANTHEM” BY ARCTIC MONKEYS

After we feel satisfied in the presence of our true personal authenticity, we have no need to sell ourselves to anyone else. We no longer have intentions to seek external validation because we are living consciously. By living authentically in this manner, we also allow others to do the same without fear of judgment or reactivity. It is in these spaces where we can grow seeds of faith without being choked out by the weeds of salesmanship or the attempt to convince others that we are something other than we truly are. Living authentically not only becomes a part of our appearance, but it allows us to reach spiritual union—internally and externally. This means that we not only have to unconditionally accept our own truth without falling into guilt, fear, shame, or favor, but we must be willing to see everyone through the same equanimous perspective. Before we can see the world through new eyes, we must first develop those eyes by seeing ourselves from the perspective of children who grew up in a world full of subjective unknowns, waiting for definition and discernment from the objective.

Ever since my awakening, I was constantly peeking beyond the veiled illusion of reality. The longer I experienced moments of transcendence, the more I realized that this was the natural state of my childhood. Instead of having to learn how to negotiate my newly-enlightened conscious presence in the metaphysical world, I merely cleared away all of the things I had learned since I was younger. Along with the false teachings and limiting belief systems, I also eliminated the external expectations and conditions which were placed upon me by others—family, friends, or otherwise. Essentially, I returned myself to a childlike state where I again had eyes to see and ears to hear the truth that was beyond the physical reality. However, since my cells were already conditioned to the vibrations of greater density, it would take some time and conscious practice (yoga/transcendence) to adjust the overall quality of my personal vibration—the field of my electromagnetic consciousness.

Though it would take some getting used to, I would constantly shift between densities, leaving me little to ground my present state of conscious awareness. More simply, I didn't have any beliefs or ideals that I could call any more “right” or “wrong” than any other. The problem was that I was still trying to use my physical senses to guide me from moment to moment instead of seeking to be led by my intuition. Therefore, I felt that I needed to find a place to stop and settle, instead of learning how to naturally “flow” from one moment to the next. Since this personal philosophy was not something that I could explain to anyone else—because it was evoked from my own personal intuitive language—I found it more advantageous to keep as much to myself. Long-term, however, I was working to find a way to express myself in a way that could be backed up by belief systems, science, or advanced theories of philosophy.

“PAINTING STORIES WE’VE TRIED TO TEACH, TO TRY TO DELIVER THE PERFECT SPEECH. THE MIRACLE THAT NEEDS TO BE SEEN WILL EXCEED ALL OF YOUR WILDEST DREAMS. LIKE A PSYCHEDELIC POWER FILL, UP OUR SPINE COMES A CARRIED WILL. BUT IT’S ALL GOOD, I’VE GOT THE BILL. READY OR NOT, IT’S COMING STILL. TAKE OFF YOUR MASKS AND CLEAR YOUR EYES. IT’S THE BEST SURPRISE TO VISUALIZE. BRING THE TRUTH OUT FROM BEHIND THE LIES. YOU DON’T NEED A TICKET TO WIN THIS PRIZE.” – “THE IMMORTAL SOUL” BY JD STAHL

Ideas and concepts that exceed popular rational belief systems, however, are more successfully conveyed through artwork or creative expression. In order to act as both creator and creation at the same time, we must channel our conscious energy to transcend both. This is when my life split into two primary dimensions of functioning consciousness. In one dimension, things appeared to be like a dream. In this dreamworld, I intuitively “knew” that other people were able to hear my thoughts—and I, theirs. When I would leave my house, I was drawn to certain people and things. Through my eyes, I would be able to name the people who were driving up the road as I would walk or pass by. What made this even more strange was that I didn't even have to see them coming; I would just sense their energy and automatically thought of their names and faces before my eyes would come in contact with them. What made it even more strange was that in this world, there wasn't anyone that I didn't know. All of the faces were repeated throughout the day—as if the same people would drive by me in a certain car only to return in a different car a few minutes later with wigs, costumes, and makeup on their faces.

There really wasn't anything that was able to escape my conscious awareness. Not only was I able to recognize people, but I was also able to “hear” or intuitively sense their thoughts—as I was sure that they were also hearing my own. This alternative dimension was like a mirror to the one where things were more dense. Whenever I was in this suspended state of reality, I didn't feel any pain. Although time would pass, I never felt a day older; instead, I actually felt that I was aging in reverse, slowly matching the version of myself that had previously occupied this higher state of consciousness. In a way, I felt as if I was in a simulation. In this simulated world, I would be able to do live out certain dreams and fantasies that I had in my mind.

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“MY ARROGANCE IS INTOLERABLE. MY PAIN IS IMMEASURABLE. LIGHTNING-QUICK JUDGMENTS AND A SICKENING CONSEQUENTIAL. BRIGHT HOT IS MY FIRE THAT BURNS. AND A FILTH SAYS I’LL NEVER BE CLEAN. WORDS AND VOICES FROM NOWHERE, AND EVERY SECOND A STRUGGLE FOR MEANS.” – “LETTERS FROM INSIDE” BY JD STAHL

When I would get frustrated, confused, or lose my composure in one way or another, I would return to a world with greater density. In this dimension, the people appeared to be much different, older and less optimistic. Even though nothing really seemed to change, I was able to sense certain differences. Using my physical senses, I would start to take notice of symbols, numbers, relationships, and the details of pretty much everything. I would even gauge my conscious awareness by reflecting towards animals, insects, or even the wind and weather itself. The more I would focus my conscious mind on seeking information through my intuition, I could feel myself being pulled into the dream-like state. Alternatively, whenever I yearned for physical sources of satiation—food, power, control, or external relationships—I would create distance.

Over a short period of time, my sensitivity in regards to my environment would alert me to the subtle changes in densities. Each second, an infinite number of thoughts, ideas, emotions, or concepts would flow into my conscious mind. How I prioritized or handled those intuitive energies eventually took me to one or the other primary dimensions. Every single emotion and action which expressed those intuitive energies would create a portal between the two worlds. The main difference that I noticed was my overall state of well-being. I could feel my mental health state swing hard between one or the other planes of consciousness.

“EVERY TIME YOU TAKE A STEP YOU FALL AND YOU GET UP, AND YOU BRUSH YOURSELF OFF. THEN YOU LOOK SHEEPISHLY AT GOD, AND TAKE ANOTHER STEP.” – SRI AUROBINDO

However, there was really nothing different in any physical sense from one moment to the next. I was still in the same place, time, and condition; however, it was my perspective that went from viewing things positively to negatively. In many ways, I was still being very hard on myself; I had placed considerable expectations on my capacity to maintain a connection with my intuitive awareness. Therefore, whenever I would feel the loss of higher energies, I would crash. In these moments, I found that I would either blame myself for being unworthy or I would get angry at some external force—as if the universe (God) itself told me that I wasn't “good enough” to continue receiving grace.

As a result of my perception of punishment in terms of physical performance or focus, I would feel depressed. However, from a higher perspective, I was really just testing myself so that I could eventually develop the intuitive sensitivity that would lead me to higher level of self-awareness and self-love/trust. After all, for the majority of my life I had significant issues with confidence. If I were ever expecting to develop my capacity to remain in higher planes of consciousness for longer periods of time, I would eventually have to learn to perfect my faith—in things unseen.

“YET THIS BEAUTY IS UNBOUNDED. AND INTELLIGENCE THAT’S UNFOUNDED. PURE WHITE RECEPTION. ENDLESS FIELDS OF EUPHORIC INTENTIONS. THE STRUGGLE IS WHERE I AM BORN, AND SYNAPSES FIRE WHEN I’M TORN. COMPLICATED INNER MISERY WITH MY BITTERSWEET REJECTIONS. PETALS OF THE PRETTIEST ANGELS ARE BLISTERED WITH THORNS FROM LIES. LOSS THAT SCREAMS FROM UNDER, AND THE HEAVENS SHOUT FROM ABOVE.” – “LETTERS FROM INSIDE” BY JD STAHL

If any of us wishes to resurrect the spiritual aspect of our existence to receive miracles or evoke intercessive energies into the physical world, we must expect to be ostracized or challenged by our social environment. If we can be so easily talked out of ourselves in exchange for philosophical materialism or limiting belief systems, then we surely deserve to lose the magic that is bestowed upon us from higher-order energies/archetypes. Fortunately, my experiences were so real that I was able to intuitively “hear” the voices of spiritual guidance from non-local places/timelines.

In a voiceless voice, I would “hear” things that would guide me and further my intuitive guidance. Some of the biggest suggestions that I brought into my consciousness were often telling me that the presence of “God” or Collective/Christ/Unity Consciousness was undeniable. There were other assurances that I would receive intuitively that projected images of the future—completely different timelines where utopian societies existed some time far in the future. The more I would lend my energy to experience these vibrations, the more I would return into the present with a completed map of how those societies were reached from my present state of consciousness and timeline. In a sense, I could map out every step which was necessary to change tracks between one reality and another.

“BOUNCE BACK FIREBALLS. LOOKING DOWN AMUSEMENT HALLS. PRETENDING NOT TO NOTICE WHO'S BEHIND THE CURTAIN CALL. PINK, BLUE, AND PURPLE MESS. MIXING COLORS ON YOUR DRESS. CAPTAIN, CAN I FIX THE TEST? CAN I BE LIKE ALL THE REST?” – “PETAL PUSHER” BY JD STAHL

Unfortunately, because such ideas and concepts challenge the socially-acceptable standards and definitions of “reality,” holding onto the intercessive experiences and visions are often met with harsh judgment or accusations. Fortunately, I had not only paid attention to the things I was experiencing and seeing intuitively, but I also remembered the messages that I had received through my subconscious. In a sense, I was always warned ahead of time of the things that would be occurring in both the near and distant future. Whether it be through dreams, my music, in random conversations, or simply in moments of quiet reflection, I was guided to trust my intuition above anything that the physical world could offer me. Essentially, I was told that I was not able to trust anything in my physical environment; not even my family should cause me to deny what I had been given to receive intuitively.

As I fluctuated between worlds, my heart would break as the actions, emotions, and personalities of every person around me would change. So drastic were these changes that in one moment I would feel I was in the presence of my best friends only to arrive at the next moment where their attitude would completely change. However, flipping between planes so quickly not only helped me to free myself from the dependencies of my external environment, but they also helped me to hone my intuitive awareness and become more comfortable with my sensitivity. As my sensitivity towards external stimuli would develop, I came face to face with my fears of vulnerability. It were these fears which were the reason for my lack of confidence.

Self-Seker Reanimates and a Weightress Eye-Up Rumies Full of Crayola-Hunting Wingmen who Point Cruel Fingers at Osiris Lifers, Hathor-Way Between Soft-Serve Shadows and the Nefer-Ending Suicide Squad Salad Bar

“I DIED AS A MINERAL AND BECAME A PLANT, I DIED AS PLANT AND BECAME ANIMAL, I DIED AS ANIMAL AND I WAS HUMAN. WHY SHOULD I FEAR? WHEN WAS I LESS BY DYING? YET ONCE MORE I SHALL DIE, TO SOAR WITH ANGELS BLEST; BUT EVEN FROM ANGELHOOD. I MUST PASS ON: ALL EXCEPT GOD PERISHES. ONLY WHEN I HAVE GIVEN UP MY ANGEL-SOUL, SHALL I BECOME WHAT NO MIND HAS EVER CONCEIVED. OH, LET ME NOT EXIST! FOR NON-EXISTENCE PROCLAIMS IN ORGAN TONES, TO GOD WE SHALL RETURN.” – RUMI

As I would experiment with my physical reality, I did my best to discern between fact and fiction. By doing so while I was balancing myself between two completely different dimensions of consciousness—I released my attachment to either. Not being grounded in any one specific reality, at first, was troubling. However, I was easily assured that it could be no worse than what I had just experienced during my intense drug withdrawal a few months earlier. Compared to the pain and discomfort I felt during that traumatic moment, there really wasn't anything to compare—not even death. In just about 4 hours, I felt as if I had died a million times; by the end, I not only accepted death without fear, but I welcomed it in the same way I would a graduation or transition to a yet higher state of being.

It was the release of control or even preference over life and death that guided me between the hot and cold flashes; the same way that I was guided between two drastically different dimensions of consciousness. Eventually, after learning to balance extremes, I stopped seeking to ground myself anywhere. I realized that as long as I could maintain conscious awareness in every aspect of my physical and non-physical reality I would eventually be able to reside in both simultaneously.

Through my conscious awareness and metaphysical perception of reality, I did my best to completely eliminate my perception of self from a dualistic perspective. This ability was both a catalyst and a product of reaching balance between different planes and densities. It was in this way that I would eventually develop the ability to bring the dream-like dimension through the threshold and into the more dense physical world. In this way, switching between dimensions was like riding a bike. From one moment to the next, my bike would go from having training wheels to only two wheels. At the beginning, I did my best to see what caused the changes in density; however, eventually I stopped looking at my back wheel and just learned to trust my own steering.

“IT’S A BRAND-NEW DAY TO SEE WITHOUT STATIC; TO STAND WITHOUT GRAVITY. NO MORE HEAVY EXPECTATION. YOUR EXPLOITATION HAS EXPIRED. TO CRAWL OUT OF THE CAVES OF SHADOWED CAVITIES. NO MORE SECLUSION OR CAPTIVITY. TO REACH YOUR CHIN INTO THE SKY. AND SPLIT THE COLORS OF THE SUN. TO HOLD THE HEAT IN A SEPARATE HAND. FEEL IT. HOLD IT. WANT IT. YOUR SILLY FEARS CANNOT TAKE THIS AWAY. JUST LOOK INTO MY EYES. SEE YOUR TRUE SELF? YOUR GREATEST SURPRISE. THE TIME IS DAWN. LET ME SHOW YOU THE NEW SUNRISE.” – “THE SHADOW OF THE LAST BATTLE” BY JD STAHL

Perceiving life through my intuitive “eye” meant that I couldn't trust my physical senses as much as I did previously. Though I could use my environment or my physical identity to guide me, I learned that I was unable to fully trust anything that was determined by variables which could only exist in space and time. I eventually learned to use other people's energy so that I would be able to receive information from both dimensions. By being honest with myself—at least enough that I could consciously acknowledge the dualistic aspects of my individual persona/ego—I taught myself to speak to the dualistic aspects of everyone else. From one perspective, I could hear their words and thoughts; in another perspective, I could hear what their higher self was trying to convey to me from behind their physical presentation.

In every person I knew—past and present—I could reflect back on their words, thoughts, and actions and put together a full picture of both dimensions. Not only could I hear their mind, but I was able to silently communicate with their spirit simply by thinking of something. On the surface, it appeared as if I was engaging in a conversation with the other person; however, behind my eyes, I was sending and receiving energy between my mind and theirs. I really didn't even need them to be present to do this. All I really had to do was think about them and I would eventually know generalized patterns of energy that were present at the time. Even in my memories, I would clearly be able to see beyond the physical aspect and perceive the generalized purpose on every other plane and dimension of consciousness.

“THOU ART THE KING (ATI) OF GODS [AND] MEN. THOU HAST GAINED POSSESSION OF THE SCEPTRE OF RULE, AND THE WHIP, AND THE RANK AND DIGNITY OF THY DIVINE FATHERS. THY HEART IS EXPANDED WITH JOY, O THOU WHO ART IN THE KINGDOM OF THE DEAD. THY SON HORUS IS FIRMLY PLACED ON THY THRONE. THOU HAST ASCENDED THY THRONE AS THE LORD OF TETU, AND AS THE HEQ WHO DWELLETH IN ABYDOS. THOU MAKEST THE TWO LANDS TO FLOURISH THROUGH TRUTH-SPEAKING, IN THE PRESENCE OF HIM WHO IS THE LORD TO THE UTTERMOST LIMIT. THOU DRAWEST ON THAT WHICH HATH NOT YET COME INTO BEING IN THY NAME OF "TA-HER-STA-NEF." THOU GOVERNEST THE TWO LANDS BY MAAT IN THY NAME OF "SEKER." THY POWER IS WIDE-SPREAD, THOU ART HE OF WHOM THE FEAR IS GREAT IN THY NAME OF "USAR" (OR "ASAR"). THY EXISTENCE ENDURETH FOR AN INFINITE NUMBER OF DOUBLE HENTI PERIODS IN THY NAME OF "UN-NEFER." – EGYPTIAN BOOK OF THE DEAD

By seeking truth in everything, I was forced to confront truth in myself. However, as soon as the death rattle of my own secrets faded away, I accepted equanimity between physical life and death. As a result, I became a resident of both worlds. Whenever I would feel the world change around me or inside me, I paid attention to what it was trying to tell me or what I would otherwise be expected to do. Messages and guidance came from pretty much everywhere. No longer did I have to rely on any specific thing to ground me, physically or spiritually. Instead, I was grounded by my own intuitive flux. I kept my heart open, without bias, so that I would be able to receive messages equally from my intuition as I did through my physical reality.

Going further to release any preferences for how I would receive information or learn, I was open to experience whatever my intuition wanted to show me. Therefore, I really didn't put any expectations on what I would come to know or even try to rationalize it with my present state of consciousness. The words, ideas, and experiences would take my entire mind over, pulling my eyes and focus to certain things in my physical reality. By not attempting to rationalize this mixed “salad” of physical sense stimuli, each piece would automatically create a subconscious dialogue in my intuitive mind. By releasing control and just allowing the natural forces of the universe to guide me, I was brought into a conversation—neither as the physical recipient or the spiritual source.

I Can Hear Your Mind

JD Stahl (09/15/2016) A miracle of modern medicine. Stuck inside my head again, Just won't think of what you want. Played against reality. Perfectibility is only just taunts. Erasing lines of time and space. Hearing the words written on your face. Nothing exists beyond my observation. Driving around like flies. Predicting all of my hesitations. What ever happened to that simple life? Now spiritual flashbacks of husband and wife. I'm awake, aware of the coming season. Feeling each cell flow in my veins. Physical, emotional, soulful treason. Snap, crackle, pop of the chemicals. Vitamins by the handful—self-medical. Civil wars inside with God undenied. All of the visions come and go. Perception of my intention will be justified.